.on the dot

2009-11-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

好久没有用华文blog了。hehe。

没有laptop在身旁好辛苦哦。:(

最近好忙哦，自然而然时间很快过。希望我不会忽略很多事情吧! :)

最近也没有什么想他, 学校真的太多事情忙了。希望我能用功一点!

so many things coming up to do! birthdays, UTs, attachment's interview n workshops, work n to sign up svcs for frens etc.

wanna shop n movies!

2009-11-09T11:13:00.002+08:00

he was late for sch.

he seems v sleepy.

he is still having running nose.

...

edited @ 1126am..

he went off and i byebye-ed to him.

2009-11-07T00:04:00.002+08:00

today.

finally i dragged my feet to sch. Guess what, it's Business Statistics lei. already started to regret going to sch today since meeting 1. sigh.

Lucky i joined another grp that will not stress me out that much. So Nigel and I did nothing except listening to Tongtong's songs and other oldies. Meeting 3, faci still asked ME, (yes me) and Mathila to present.

since didn't hear from me for so long. -According to faci.

Sian to the max.

Dragged my feet to work as well. Was super sleepy on train, so i decided to walk from bartley mrt station to office. 1 stone kill 3 birds! i can keep myself awake, and to do a little exercise & kills some fats, and save bus transport! :D

was rather moodless at work, until my sis msg me, Tongtong won Best Single Producer @ today's YES 933 award! its a pity that he dint come. :(

of course, i shared this gd news to Mr. Lua as well. he seems no reaction on this issue at all, but instead asking me, do i have his songs?

& here am i, sending Tongtong's songs to him via email. 1 by 1.

nvm la, im still happy happy happy!

16 more days!

UT sucks

2009-11-04T21:21:00.003+08:00

HTM's UT today really sucks la.
although i did tourism before back in O level days, at least i still can finish lor.
this time round, think i missed 2/3 questions, BLANK.
but many of us also la, but i hope at least a.. B?

Financial accounting UT in 2 wks later, die die must get an A!
think i must work hard for this semester le. :)

Watching Daddy's At Home!

2009-11-03T00:03:00.002+08:00

this guy, Mr. Lua. i can admit, he is really really pro.

i have not seen this guy for 4 mths+, and until now, he is still always appearing on my mind.
24/7, 7 days a week.

was really glad to see his sms out of sudden, after when i MMS him a picture of my dogs the day before.

im still glad there is still a link between us. which is, STARHUB.
hahahaha.
have been trying my best to reduce his mobile subscription (by right is mine)
30% hub club discount. i sacrifice my mum's line just to allow him to enjoy the discount.
free 6 mths Caller ID somemore. total he has enjoyed 9 mths free!

see how much he can save! hahaha.
and im like still in charge of his cable tv & mol.

i just hope. this can last forever.
i just hope. he wont get drain out because of work.
i just hope. maybe i can just glance at him once in a while?
i just hope. he will occasionally msg me for random chat like what he did?
i just hope. i can still smile and even laugh to myself when reading his past email and sms.

sigh. go to slp la!

btw, 20 more days to his birthday! how much cool can that be!

OMG

2009-10-29T23:20:00.001+08:00

i somehow have nothing to do so i goggled my full name.
Other than my own blog, i found this page.
-.-""""
is like OMG la. Student photo so damn ugly still wanna post! On school website somemore.

...

e72 e72 e72.........

jiayou!

2009-10-27T13:53:00.002+08:00

am telling myself.

ATTENDANCE THIS WEEK 100%! & NO LATE & PARTIAL!

IF FULFILLED WILL REWARD MYSELF W A FRESH HAIRCUT NEXT WK! :D

2009-10-25T00:08:00.002+08:00

just back from a short outing with Bestie. miss him!

dont be so emo at times le k..

no idea why, my gum is swollen n painful. :(

anyway work today was pretty good. cause i answered inbound again! but not much sales la. all call in talk cock only. lunched with Wayne and ThaiSeng. :)

dont say i emo. just that im somehow troubled.
1. which uni to go?
2. when can i buy flat for my mum?
3. when can i buy car?
4. how will things be like between me n him?
5. i miss him la. :(

:(

2009-10-23T00:20:00.001+08:00

oh ya,

1 more month to Mr. Lua Yong Liang's birthday!! :D :D

2009-10-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

i went sch today! :D

wahahaha. eyesore wasnt here today. so everything went well! *chicken feet la

anyway, there's Education Fair today. took some booklets home. i wonder, should i study uni?? hmmmm.

btw, i admit that my mood today was weird, i think?

i had no idea why i just pissed off, with people?

i do not know how. should i live for myself or others? should i compromise myself for e sake of others, or opposite way? should i make myself happier or others more?

I DUNNO LA.

how much more sucks can this be.

nevertheless, there's something that i can conclude : food does affect mood.

cause im hungry!!

2009-10-21T21:35:00.002+08:00

opps. skipped sch today.

missed Service Quality module for 2 times le. -.- cant pon for next 13 weeks already! T.T

guess what, i went to work. just to close one sale for a customer that requested for installation tmr.

FINALLY my ez link is back to me. it passed to YuTian-ThaiSeng-Wayne-Marion-Me. -.-

no more privacy already la. plus my photo is super damn ugly. :(

alrite. better do some housechore n turn in early. 830am class tmr!

all of a sudden, 觉得自己很幸福。

2009-10-20T11:10:00.003+08:00

it was nice hanging out with Judy, Felicia, YuTian, Gillian, Gina, Alfred, JunRong, TaiSeng, Ethan & Gina's bf last sat.

Social house is fun!

Had no idea why we ended up at one of the thai disco at Golden mile there. damn sian lor. toliets there r damn stink n poor Felicia dropped her phone in the toliet bowl. -.- if is me i rather throw e phone away lor.

homed at 4+am n slept for around 5 hrs and at 11am. -.-

sun worked as usual. but some issues pissed me off.

sigh.

2009-10-13T15:29:00.000+08:00

4 Days 3 Nights in Taipei are simply fulfilling.

People here are v friendly, and lots of hot guys. :p

Hv experienced different culture, different living habits. But the heart of the people are similar.

Especially Khaili's concert! :D
Really love and admire his music more and more.

Blog again when im officially back to Singapore.

I love Taipei!

失落沙洲

2009-10-07T00:07:00.000+08:00

我不是一定要你回来只是当又一个人看海回头才发现你不在留下我迂回的徘徊我不是一定要你回来只是当又把回忆翻开除了你之外的空白还有谁能来教我爱

2009-10-02T20:43:00.000+08:00

top sales for the month of September 09!

woohoo. (:

2009-09-22T00:30:00.002+08:00

work has been pretty boring without Judy Chan around. ):

but finally i will be seeing her on wed! yayyayyayyayyay!

but in TM, i have one 斗嘴的对象. is one fat guy, name Seah Thai Sing Nobel.

his name is super funny already. "Thai for Thailand, Sing for Singapore" that's how he explain his name to his customers. And my office is right in Tai Seng, Nobel building. how lame can that be.

at least, spending time like this in office makes my day entertained, as well as my neighbours and my sup.

had fever last sat, no choice but to slp for e whole afternoon. wasted la. no idea why, my throat has been feeling very pain, especially when i swallow. i wonder if drinking warm water helps. ):

going to Taiwan in 19 days time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so gonna collect all my bad debts so that i will hv sufficient $ to go!

2009-09-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

finally understand how does one night stand comes about.
NOPE i will never agree to it.

it happened just like a dream.

will be going Taiwan next month! Woohoo!

2009-09-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

blogging using phone once again.

life is getting boring. no mood for work tmr AT ALL.

reason? Comex IT show is starting tmr! who will bother to ans my call? while promos tat i can give r all so damn not attractive.

only closed 1 new dv n mol recon. :(

needs new sales badly. :( :(

first time i feel tat holidays r not happy n fun at all..

2009-09-08T02:40:00.003+08:00

wow. to think that im still awake now!

aiya. who cares? people will only starting work at 1pm later. :D

have been doing quite a number of self reflections recently.

我承认我是一个嘴硬心软的人。so i think, 我常常会后悔自己曾经做过，和应该做的事但没有做的事。

我也不是一个喜欢拍马屁的人。尤其是拍老板或者喜欢的男生的马屁。我不喜欢依靠其他人，都尽量靠自己。so i think, 可能是这个的缘故，我的“人气”就没有那么好？at the same time, 我又是一个容易也害怕寂寞的人。我想，做我的男朋友应该不容易吧！哈哈。

J told me that she and G had a bet, if he were to come back to me one day, will i still accept him？G betted Yes while J betted No. Initally, this was a good question to me. Slowly, i recall on the past memories and i asked myself the reason why i used to like him. i thought i will bet No as well. But i told myself, my answer will be Yes. and then, i asked myself Why?

Reason being: 我还没有找到一个会爱他多过爱你的人。

haiz. anyway, i will still be contacting him one day to seek help for my PP in which will be due on 7 oct!

if im not wrong, 6 hours later, Rayson Oh will be enlisted le!
take good care. awaiting for his meal treat 2 weeks later!

its 3am le. time to sleep!

mobile training tmr. zzzz.

2009-09-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

rather a disappointing day.

2009-09-04T10:40:00.002+08:00

"With the new MaxMobile SurfLite, everyone can now enjoy unlimited mobile broadband! Surf at speeds of up to 2Mbps everywhere in Singapore.
Sign up today and enjoy a whopping 50% OFF monthly subscription at just $19.36 monthly monthly (Usual $38.72), plus a FREE mobile broadband modem."

Resource: http://www.starhub.com/promotions/broadband/maxmobilesurflite.html

See! Isn't it great! I would like to sign up for that too. I can't as i have an existing mobile phone under my name. =(

Anyway, whoever is interested pls call me @ 91441764 alrite!

Im too desparate for sales already. =(

2009-08-27T09:52:00.002+08:00

1st day in TM. 1 recon.
2nd day. 6 recon.

how about today?

had fever yesterday morning. but still went to work. it wasn't seem as good. ):

but he was still damn sweet la. From a friend's perspective la.

more sales pls!

2009-08-24T13:42:00.000+08:00

我值得你对我好吗？

yesterday. 23 aug. one of the sweetest day.

6 more months to 21st bday!

2009-08-18T13:54:00.002+08:00

Giving myself a very short break first.

Mugging for UT3 currently at home! Hope i can do well. Feels like back to O level days, keep booming notes.

This wk might be a tough week. But will be over soon!

And soon, i will be offically a TM agent.

*sales come to me!

Btw, Ayumi's new song Sunset ~Love is all~ is DAMN nice! (:

Will be back soon.

2009-08-10T17:01:00.002+08:00

Yes i know, im dread of taking planes.
But, i yearn for a holiday.

I wanna breathe fresh air in a foreign location.

I wanna shop, sit in a cafe drinking coffee (but i will order chocolate drink or frappe as i dont drink coffee. haha!) like nobody's business.

I wanna go Taiwan~

2009-08-05T23:04:00.002+08:00

today.

i am blogging because today is a significant day.

it's been a week since i left StarHub.

im behaving like an old woman, doing nothing but only pondering on the past memories.

the good old days in Haw Par. obviously.

also, today marks the 6th month for the last outing.
the movie ticket stub is still safely kept in my wallet.

only until today, i totally realised that its totally not worth it.

why am i still at the same position while he has already moved on, holding another girl's hand.

NOPE I WONT CRY.

staying strong at the moment.

2009-07-30T12:47:00.003+08:00

hi all!

So so many things happened to me nowadays.

Firstly, im down with H1N1 =(

i had super high fever last thur and fri, and i even fainted at my block lobby.

i recovered on sat and i still couldn't go to work. =(

i spent 4 days at home, doing nothing but watching tv, online and isloated myself in my bedroom. when i had already recovered.

IT WAS LIKE LIVING IN HELL

and then, i went back to work yesterday. it marked my last day in StarHub too.

the feeling is never good.

today. back in school. had missed today's module for super long time. kind of weird stepping in E66N again.

3 more weeks and im done with sem 1.

going for shopping and haircut after sch! :D

2009-07-21T14:57:00.004+08:00

*EDITED 25/7.
Haiz..

BTT later. Die die must pass! A round of shopping before my test though. :D

wish me all the best friends. (:

2009-07-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

hello people!

elaine is back for blogging!
some things to share with u guys! :D

resources & further details - http://www.cozycot.com/shop/product/67248

i just bought this at SASA today and they are having promotion with 20% disc!

After disc is ONLY $15.90! :D

Since it was recommended from 女人我最大 and press release from i-weekly, so why not?
i just applied it for ard 20 mins ago, inital 1-3 mins, the surface applied on my stomach will start turning warm. And soon. the fats will be gone! wahahaha.

shall update again 12 days later to see whether it is effective?

Den i can flee from California Fitness! :D :D :D

was reading Agnes' blog just now. (resource - http://www.aggylow.com/)

was thinking on my past and current status as well.

So i shall update mine too!

As many of you guys are aware, for the past months, my mood hasn't been very good due to a guy.

Not trying to say that I love him only before, in fact, had a few "weird" experiences with some other "significant" guys.

Let's recall!

Can still remember, the very first guy (in fact boy)that i "fell in love" with, was during primary 1-3! my very own classmate. He wasnt a chinese but he was a very very fun, yet super smart boy!

That was puppy love still.

After that, when i was in primary 5, my very own classmate again. We liked each other, but never really confess to each other (knowing in our hearts) but the relationship broke off when my best friend at that time invaded in..

That was 50% puppy love still as i wasn't really hurt by it yet.

My very first ex appeared when i was in secondary 1. my very own classmate again again. He was the one that took the initiative to get close to me. At that point of time, i had a crush with his best friend. Scenerio was pretty similar to 流星花园 wahahaha. But of course, that guy didn't like me as he already had girlfriend. The very first date with him was at bugis, with his younger bro, and we watched Ice Age 1. As time goes by, i began to accept him. The very first holding of hand was on 5 oct, 2002. And we watched The Matrix.. We broke up on 27 july 2003 due to some childish emotions and arguments.

I was totally hurt because of this relationship. I remembered that i skipped school for a wk just to stay at home.

it took me almost 2 years to get over this relationship and at the same time, i decided to work hard for my studies as i retained during secondary 3. (together with him -.-) so, during my secondary school years, i only had 1 relationship despite of having crush with other guys from different classes.

And then, i graduated from GESS in 2007! and busied working at Earle Swensen's & Canon for 1 month plus.

Until i met this guy in Earle Swensen's in nov.. Went out with him once with my friend tagged along, but it didn't turn out well. He resigned soon after that.

My 2nd relationship started on 14 feb 08 (romantic right?!) with another guy in Earle Swensen's as well.

Well, some significant memories with him were the ZOO outing, and the date when he bought me my birthday gift..

At the same time, i entered RP on 20 apr. Got to know many new people, trying to adopt myself in PBL. We had together for only months plus and i asked for a breakup. Reason being that we had too little time for each other, busying with our own life, and definitely this is not that kind of relationship that i want.

I joined StarHub on 11 aug as part time sales staff, slowly i got to know this guy. Am sure many of you are aware. I had a lot pleasant times with him and that's really really enough for me.

And now! I'm in RP year 2. 2 weeks ago, my mood was especially down as I went through a lot of bad moments. With that guy, did not do really well for my studies and i'm leaving StarHub very soon. I was very depressed until i once thinking of ending my life.

Was thinking of 黎础宁 as well. If you guys know her, she was 2nd runner up from 3rd 超级星光大道. she killed herself because of relationship.

resources - http://yule.sohu.com/20081125/n260834807.shtml

Feeling damn sad as she was my favourite singer. BUT, if death is really the best way for her to feel better, so why not? :(

I JUST NOTICED. 黎础宁'S DEATH ANNIVERSARY IS ON YONG LIANG'S BIRTHDAY.

SO HOW SHOULD I FEEL ON THAT DAY?

neverthless, life is still pretty good for me. I passed my basic theory evaluation on thurs! Like finally! And i will be having my basic theory test on tues! Grrrrr.

and NOW, i am rather having a very neutral feeling towards relationship now. Like, "have then have, don't have then don't have lor" attitude. Although i'm having a crush with a guy, let fate lead the way ba!

Happy school day tomorrow!

2009-07-17T15:03:00.001+08:00

boo!

will be back for blogging soon!

happy me :D :D :D :D

time for new blogskin too!

2009-06-30T23:47:00.002+08:00

hi all!

today is a good day!

had a nice slp today, and then met Xue Jun!

super long nv c her le!

we had Swensen's for lunch. 1 for 1 is the last day!

as usual, i had my fish baked rice. yummy!

and then, we went for manicure & padicure @ citibella!

only cost us $6 and $12!

they are pretty professional. The girl that served me has a VERY smooth and tender hand! is like WOW..

hehehehe.

and then, we went to Beauty Credit and bought LOTS of stuff!

for myself, i bought 2 peeling gel (Rice & Soy and Grape & Lavender), pink pearl powder, 2 kiwi yogurt pack for my sis and Coenzyme Q10 BB cream! and we gotten Boys over Flowers DVD, Massage & facial voucher, 2 sets of skin samples and a big pack of "For Men" facial wash!

happy happy :D

as we took too long on choosing the products to buy, i overshoot the time for me to go BBDC for my Basic Theory Evaluation at 455pm. :(

nevertheless, we still made a trip there and Xue Jun enrolled herself in too! :D

and then, home sweet home.

WORK TMR!

no idea why im getting nervous. =x

2009-06-28T22:03:00.002+08:00

hello people!

I am back from.. bangkok!

Bought damn alot of things. and alot things happened in bangkok!

other than shopped, ate & slp, Willie lost his handphone on first day, last night was really errrrr!

let me further elaborate.
we went for clubbing as it was our final night and we had to ton!
met Chris over there as well! drank, dance, laughed.
after that, as Chris was super drunk, we had to cab and send him home.
the damn STUPID and SUCKED taxi driver doesn even know where is the hotel!
claimed that he KNOWS b4 we boarded the cab!
ended up. he drove us for like dunno how many rounds!
Chris puked suddenly and we had to clean up as we wouldn't want to pay anything extra to that sucker.
after we cleaned up, that sucker still insisted us to pay him! we refused and he started pulling Willie's shirt. after that, pulled Sam's shirt as well!
Bashed Chris as well when he was still drunk! Damn goodness!
Sam was super furious as well and he poured water when that sucker went back to his cab.
AND..
that sucker came out from his cab with.. A KNIFE!
what does he wanted to do? snab us?
he was stopped by a hotel staff and "SAVED us"
since he cant do that, he took a handful of soil and threw at us.
WTF!

after the sucker left and we continued finding our way to find the hotel.

END OF STORY.

damn scary!

haiz.
anyway, on my way back on train, Wayne called me and was told that i had to quarantine myself for work a week!! :( :( :(

I SHOULD QUARANTINE MYSELF FROM SCH AS WELL!
I WANNA SLP UNTIL I DIE.

drinking my bird nest now!

i think ive grown fat too =x

EMO too as he is not talking to me. missed him like mad for the past 10 days. that's what i gotten back.

IT'S OKKKKK.

2009-06-23T14:14:00.002+08:00

today.
b4 i leave SG for Bangkok, got to check my daily grades for now.
2 absence so far. 2 more X due to the trip. Grades for Sales Management & Marketing are so far the best.
Straight Bs except 1 irritating C.

anyway.
lesson today is fun! finally had a hands-on lesson.
Basically, we were given 3 products from SUI!, and we had to walk ard the sch to sell!
The products are, 1 male tshirt $18.90, 1 toothbrush holder $5.90 & 1 card case $5.90.
My team did a very good job as we sold EVERYTHING! :D
thanks to the 2 facis and the grp of guys that bought from us!
despite being attitude-d by others which included faci! -.-""
and it's rather tiring too as we faced rejection alot of time, walked alot too!

But seriously, hard work does pays off. :D :D

Anyway, lots of things to do later when sch ends!

Gonna head to chinatown for $$ changing, buy my dearest Ayumi concert DVD, heading to mum's house to take my sling bag & watch the concert, buying kfc for my sis & back home to pack my stuff!

Aside to Delcry, plsssss take goody care. see u if i can see u.

2009-06-22T13:39:00.003+08:00

fri.
i bought this cap instead of the other cap! Nice ma??
Anyway, marketing lesson was pretty fun!
After buying the cap at far east after sch, went for advanced Fathers' Day dinner.
First year having that with 2 fathers.
Dinner was held at Chinatown. I ordered alot!
1x sausage & chic rice
2x egg tart
2x lotus bau
1x prawn chee cheong fun
1x har kao!
had fun chatting and laughing at well.

but, i did something very stupid today. =(
and held my phone n awaited for a never-can-receive sms.

sat.
nothing much. just work and work. late-d again.
lunchtime was....... =(
after work went to drink with Winnie, Erik & Adrian.
think i drank quite alot as i vomitted when i get home. =x
but had fun there as well.

sun.
worked & late-d again. last day @ work! woohoo.
super hungry as well, as i accompanied Judy for lunch.
when i arrived to office, saw 1 offline msg from him..
"tomorrow no work ?"
haiz.......
cleared my work. time for me to have a good rest.
9 days away from StarHub.
hope my TL doesnt msg me anything with regards to work.

today.
wore my Stay Real cap to sch!
classmates say it look nice to me. wahahaha!
but, having monday blues. =(

nevertheless, i wanna buy this shirt!

today's lesson is pretty interesting. time for me to plan something ahead.

maybe, it's really time for me to let go. but is that really so easy to do so? not sure whether im emo again, but..... i really hope i can be a real happy girl, with lots of friends and lives a carefree life.

FANG DA TONG! i love himmmm!

2009-06-18T23:30:00.002+08:00

yesterday.

first day @ new office. super sucks. i had dunno spent how much on the stupid cab farr. was late for work somemore. lunchtime with Winnie, Willie & Kenneth was.... too much time to spend! food was only okok, lucky Judy introduced a bakery shop, selling pretty nice donut! some issues occurred that caused me n Gab to feel unhappy.. =( but shall not get bothered by it too much ya!

also, yesterday was Samuel's last day. he drove us to kembangan for supper! we had very nice prata & satay! photos available @ FB..

all e best Sam..!

today.
reached sch pretty early and i bought subway cookies! $2.50 only after 15% disc! :D nice nice nice. lesson pretty sucks and i was super duper sleepy. had fun taking videos of us in focus grp!
meetup Agnes after sch for early dinner, window shopped @ CWP and back home SLEEP!
oh ya, saw a guy @ CWP who wore the same shirt that Yong Liang wore yesterday! msg him and told him that..

slept tooooo long and i missed my gym session =(

and now. super no mood to study for UT tmr. i guess i need some motivation.
6 more days to BK trip! cant wait to go man!

Advanced Fathers' Day dinner tomorrow!

2009-06-15T01:04:00.001+08:00

can i own this cap?

*edit 18/06.
it's arriving tomorrow!

2009-06-14T23:32:00.004+08:00

yesterday.

last day of work for Mong Tan & Chris. =(
super sad.
i will miss calling Mong Tan from now.
no longer able to disturb him.
no longer able to poke his mole.
i will miss Chris sitting next to me during work.
no longer seeing him borrowing access pass from me.
dunno why i can laugh over everything he speaks.

i missed the steamboat session @ bugis. =(
but joined them for drinking @ crazy elephant.
fun!!
but........ =(
i was quite abit drunk and i think i crapped alot infront of him?
omg i feel sooooooo.
was thinking, he and 2 others were away for super long. was he giving me a chance to interact with others?
i dunno. i was told that i am missing a good chance. am i?

today.
worked FULL after sleeping for merely 4 hrs.
calls today are....... super damn alot!
all thanks to PC show. -.-

last day working @ haw par....
after 10 mths 4 days.

after today..
no longer taking mrt to dhoby gahut
no longer lunch at PS/MS/Park mall
no longer bubble tea from sweet talk
no longer seating at my favourite seat.
no longer looking at him from that very angle.

memories in haw par are very precious to me.
i feel so emotional when i see stuffs over there are getting lesser n lesser, all are packed in boxes, all pc had to shut down......
maybe im far too emotional?
haizzz.

my hell days will be coming soon. =(

anyway.
i think im gonna enjoy myself tomorrow. shall skip sch!
shall..
gym. kbox. eat!

2009-06-12T00:39:00.004+08:00

最近在读一本日本手机小说，它提到＂谈了恋爱，有可能幸福，也可能痛苦。因为旁人的规劝而就能放弃的爱情，根本不是爱情。＂

好同意这句话哦。。

最近的我。不知道过得好不好。每天都在想着他。
我相信，我会一直一直喜欢着他，就算现在我已经知道，完全没有结果的。

几天前，我又哭了。好害怕。以后就不会再看见他了。但是，有什么用呢。

现在，我都不敢正眼看着他。还是会心跳加速哦。。

手上的戒指是为他而戴的。代表着，我对他的爱。我真的打从心里觉得，我不会喜欢其他男生了。我的世界只有他。。

就算有时候，我会感到寂寞，感到脆弱和无助，那也是没办法的事。能够认识他，已经是件很幸运和幸福的事了。

我会。。。
给他自由。
祝他幸福，一直快乐。
把那短暂的回忆永远地放在心里。

不求回报的我，能够得到幸福吗。。？

p/s: 大家请不用担心！我会过得好好的。。。。

2009-06-03T00:12:00.001+08:00

http://seeking-that-dream.blogspot.com

is temporary closed down.

nothing much to blog. are all daily routine. work, sch, supper, gym.

* i dunno how long can i last.

2009-06-03T00:00:00.002+08:00

黄丽玲难得
词:古皓曲:古皓

我还记得我挽着你的手
天冷时候一起躲在棉被中
那时我们不害怕犯错那时以为天空多辽阔
朋友都说你后来变真多
总是避谈纯真坦白那时候
体贴的人不再追问我
只说你也有梦他也有梦虽然难得不必心痛

我以为我成熟以为从此就自由
我尝试着快乐快乐却不陪着我
爱没有回来了你已经离开我
回忆紧紧缠着我像当初不肯放手
我以为我成熟以为我能好好过
我尝试着堕落当我想你的时候
爱不会回来了你已经离开我
却一直住在我心中

如果傻傻的承诺现在还在一起吗
情侣龃龉常常有
如果寂寞的时候已经学会去推托
他也有梦我也有梦
虽然难得不必心痛

这样的爱实在难得

2009-06-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

today.

i just wrote a post right before this. but im not gonna publish it. its an emo post anyway.

just back from supper with Gab & Willie. its so super damn not worth it. =(

holiday is here! i wished for something exciting.

its 1st of june. time flies.

2+ mths more and im working SH for a year.

5+ mths since my life changed alot.

im tired. i need a break.

im yearning like mad. I WANT THOSE DAYS BACK. *but its mission impossible.

AND right now, my bro-in-law is watching The Punisher.. =(((

2009-05-29T13:21:00.004+08:00

today.

is last day of sch! finally get to have a rest from sch for 2 wks. :D

and also, i have a small and simple wish. but its a mission impossible. or can i?

life is getting better now. is happy enough for me.

favourite hobbies nowadays are just.. listening to mp3, eating supper, playing facebook & msn.

finally sorted out my thoughts as well.

had so many cravings too!

yesterday was the launch of circle line. and im gonna take circle line later! :D

2009-05-27T22:53:00.003+08:00

today.
i wanna curse that person.
i will seriously curse you for being such a cheapo, low class, dishonesty & making a fool of yourself!
just because of someone that i dont even who, my darling $150 Nike sports shoe was stolen today!
heart broken to the max. =((((((

i find myself super useless. i feel like wasting my own time, my own life. why am i doing and thinking of things that are totally a waste of time?

why am i loving someone when i will never ever get loved?
why am i trapped in that very small circle. why cant i get out?

nevertheless... if i am given a chance... if time can goes back...

i will still choose this path...

holidays holiday.. im yearning for u..

*super no mood to study for UT tomorrow.

2009-05-24T22:40:00.002+08:00

today.
i have no idea why. im too extremely tired.
i ate super alot too.
for example.
fri.
suppered with Celia, Matthew, Soon Ming, Wille, Mikey & Gab @ Cafe Cartel. good one as we saw performance by Shen mu yu tong and e rest! :D
sat.
lunched with Gab, Marcus & Ci'en @ LJS.
suppered with Willie & Gab @ Xin Wang
today.
lunched with Chris, Gab, Judy & Winnie @ Billy Bombers.

... i feel super damn fat now. =( but i enjoyed!!

NOW. super tired. lucky i studied 6P during work just now. haiz.

1 more week to go. Go go go!
UT tomorrow & thurs. sian lor. Sales Management & Marketing.

holidays come soon quick!

in short.
im just emotionally & physically tired. =((

2009-05-21T23:31:00.004+08:00

today.

long and tiring day. woke up late. had to bath super fast n dashed out.

changed team today.

new team members for Market Sensing module. Daniel, Orange, Yanni and Dhirah. problem was pretty hard and i did my job ok!

Very tiring as well. Headed to PP workshop with Alica, Orange and Elma after sch.

Seriously, i do not know what to do for PP yet! Stress... Promise, will start doing next week!

after PP workshop, it rained!Elma and i had to take bus to mrt. im so convinced to get myself driving liscene!

anyway, finally think through. i decided to return him the freedom. thanks alot to Judy for all e advises. I wont "disturb" him anymore. Perhaps, all i can do is to wait. and keep myself busy. perhaps i can get over.

Well! sch holiday is coming real soon again! i wanna go overseas! i wanna have class outing! i wanna go ktv! i wanna go shopping! :D

ps: there is this weird person calling himself/herself "the ghost" and tagged me. seems like die die dont wan to reveal?

yawn!

2009-05-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

today.

sch is pretty fun as dress code for today is FORMAL! due to my Sales Management module.

haiz. it can be a hard chore as i can no longer bring my backpack to sch. so i had to place my lappy in DKNY handbag, n its damnnnn heavy can! =/

had a crazy time laughing and joking in class while preparing the presentation. :D

damn scary too as we had to present in lecture room! something different n its cool too! my team had a hard time struggling too as we were the first team!

camwhored too after presenting. photos to be up soon!

after that, Nigel, Greyton, Daniel, Grace, 1 more girl and i went ahead to E66N for our first UT!

pretty easy but i spotted 1 careless mistake! :(

stayed in class after UT and Daryl came to my class. trained together!

oh my, i miss those old old times in StarHub with RP temps. =(

back home. rested and went jogging! :D i wonder how much fats were murdered. =/

had dinner, watched Fang Da Tong's live and here am i slacking!

n its time to slp now!

supper tomorrow again! can i?

2009-05-19T00:32:00.008+08:00

in red -hope Jay wins!
in green - im stuck as both of them rocks!

but since he said Fang Da Tong, let it be ba! jia you!

第20届金曲奖入围名单：

最佳年度歌曲奖
甲你揽牢牢《甲你揽牢牢》╴阿尔发音乐股份有限公司
下一个天亮《郭静下一个天亮》╴福茂唱片音乐股份有限公司
100种生活《100种生活》╴添翼创越工作室
你不是真正的快乐《后青春期的诗》╴相信音乐国际股份有限公司
国境之南《海角七号电影原声带》╴丰华唱片股份有限公司
稻香《魔杰座》╴杰威尔音乐有限公司

最佳国语专辑奖
如果有一件事是重要的╴大乐音乐企业社
不想放手╴上华国际企业股份有限公司
100种生活╴添翼创越工作室
黄立行最后只好躺下来╴华纳国际音乐股份有限公司
魔杰座╴杰威尔音乐有限公司

最佳音乐录影带奖
风《【好人﹖ ﹗ Abin】方炯镔首张个人创作专辑》╴喜欢唱片股份有限公司(导演：戴佩妮（阿妮）)
最幸褔的事《爱的诗篇》╴环球国际唱片股份有限公司(导演：周格泰)
爱情灵药《ELASTIC ROCK》╴亚神音乐娱乐股份有限公司(导演：高辉)
太空弹《太空弹》╴爱贝克思股份有限公司(导演：王仁里)
黑白《橙月》╴华纳国际音乐股份有限公司(导演：戴佩妮)
病态《神秘嘉宾》╴华研国际音乐股份有限公司(导演：比尔贾)
魔术先生《魔杰座》╴杰威尔音乐有限公司(导演：周杰伦)

最佳作曲人奖
卢广仲╴100种生活《100种生活》╴添翼创越工作室
方大同╴Singalongsong《橙月》╴华纳国际音乐股份有限公司
周杰伦╴稻香《魔杰座》╴杰威尔音乐有限公司
李泉╴眼色《神秘嘉宾》╴华研国际音乐股份有限公司
陈建年╴烙印祖灵《南王姐妹花同名专辑》╴角头文化事业股份有限公司

最佳作词人奖
巫宇轩╴电车内面《甲你揽牢牢》╴阿尔发音乐股份有限公司
阿信╴我心中尚未崩坏的地方《后青春期的诗》╴相信音乐国际股份有限公司
阿信╴如烟《后青春期的诗》╴相信音乐国际股份有限公司
严云农╴国境之南《海角七号电影原声带》╴丰华唱片股份有限公司
周杰伦╴稻香《魔杰座》╴杰威尔音乐有限公司

最佳编曲人奖
钟成虎、陈柏州、卢广仲╴早安,晨之美!《100种生活》╴添翼创越工作室
王力宏╴我完全没有任何理由理你《王力宏全新创作大碟<心˙跳>》╴台湾索尼音乐娱乐股份有限公司
Martin Tan╴As Love Begins to Mend《start from here》╴台湾索尼音乐娱乐股份有限公司
方大同╴Singalongsong《方大同橙月》╴华纳国际音乐股份有限公司
钟兴民╴魔术先生《魔杰座》╴杰威尔音乐有限公司

最佳专辑制作人奖
陈子鸿、江蕙╴甲你揽牢牢╴阿尔发音乐股份有限公司
陈珊妮╴如果有一件事是重要的╴大乐音乐企业社
黄立行、Jae Chong╴黄立行最后只好躺下来╴华纳国际音乐股份有限公司
周杰伦╴魔杰座╴杰威尔音乐有限公司
陈建年╴南王姐妹花同名专辑╴角头文化事业股份有限公司

最佳国语男歌手奖
陈奕迅╴不想放手╴上华国际企业股份有限公司
萧煌奇╴我是萧煌奇╴黑色吉他工作室
王力宏╴王力宏全新创作大碟<心˙跳>╴台湾索尼音乐娱乐股份有限公司
方大同╴方大同橙月╴华纳国际音乐股份有限公司
周杰伦╴魔杰座╴杰威尔音乐有限公司

2009-05-18T13:59:00.004+08:00

fri.
sch as usual in morning and work after sch. rained!
suppered with Lynn, her husband, Winne and Judy at liang court!
not too bad la.
we discussing on going to Genting in june!

sat. full shift.
pretty slack again!
lunched with Wayne, Celia, Winnie, Gab and Marcus at The Cathay!
it's nice! :D
dinner break with Gab, Kenneth and Mikey. joked along the way.
suppered with Gab again at Cafe Cartel! pictures uploaded in FB.

sun. full shift again.
2nd to reach office despite being late.
lunched with Gab and Willie. *dulan with particulat someone =x
and we had kfc!
again. slacked as well. and too much time to take pictures!
dinner break with Gab, Judy and Chris.
once again, suppered with Judy at Cafe Cartel!
chatted alot with Judy! made me realised some stuff as well.

This is the tall Chris! his pants is cute right?! wahaha

look at how "busy" they are.

my hair is so damn nice at this pic.

and this is me today in sch!

2009-05-17T19:01:00.001+08:00

today.
RC-ing during work. Willie asked..
WHY ARE THERE 2 RABBITS IN UR RESTAURANT? *as circled

laughed out loud!

Lots of things to be updating soon!

2009-05-14T19:31:00.007+08:00

yesterday.
another working day.
but someone's status unknown. heard that he only woke up @ 4pm?

anyway, had kfc for lunch with Celia, Winnie, Willie & Kenneth as i brought coupon!
woohoo! but not able to play RC as there's no flashplayer on my com. =(

and then. had supper @ Cafe Cartel again! with Gab, Mike & Samuel!
this time round, is really damn fun. Laughed and joked alot. :D
thanks so much for the entertainment n im no longer that emo.
and sorry that my jokes are all not funny. =(

Pictures time!

Our frappes!

The 3-in-1 fries!

Spicy drumlets!

Mike ordered Eastside Brownie and its dammnnn nice!
Initally, e guys were camera-shy..

and then....

Mike started stupid these stupid looks!

The pretty us (:

Took this pic in my room & it was TOTALLY dark! my phone's flash is damn powerful rite?!

Yuuki hide under the bed.

today.

my team was totally slacking and we decided to partial!
people involved: Elaine, Javinna, Nigel, Daniel & David!

The guys were caught partial!

Happy and tired me.

5 of us went CWP and went to watch Star Trek. Nigel dint wanted to watch as he had already watched it. Both me and Nigel wanted to watch Angels & Demon but the show started too late..

Star Trek was... err.. i dont really understand e movie and i fell aslp a couple of time.

Nigel was sitting beside me, he kept moving and going to toliet!

home sweet home after that. (:

Collected my new ezlink card as well! Cool rite.

2009-05-10T19:58:00.002+08:00

While clearing my emails.. saw these a/c..

in conclusion: i miss those wonderful days...

anyway, my period is here. maybe these few days of emo-ness is due to PMS?

2009-05-09T23:45:00.004+08:00

today.

im home! just checked my bank a/c. my pay is in! :D

i must save up for upcoming GSS!

anyway. HAPPY VESAK DAY :D *random

which means, double pay today! :D x10000000000

work was damn fun. err. should i say, i only worked with my 50% effort?

e other 50%, busy playing Restaurant City & Hell's Kitchen, crapping with the peeps!

lunched with Willie, Soon Ming, Jun Hong & Tan Chin Ping. Soon Ming, Jun Hong and i ate Indonesian BBQ's fried chicken!! Yummyyyy! it tasted much much better as compared with TBP's one. =x

but.. after 6pm.. when morning shift peeps left.. there's only me and him.. just call me stupid, useless or whatever name u guys can call. i did nothing, nothing and nothing.. but, everytime when he sniffed & sneezed, haiz. heart pain.. but i spoke nothing to him, neither it seems that i care for him..

wanted to go KTV with Duncan and the grp after work one.. but im working full shift again tmr..

nevertheless! went PS with Ylva, Samuel and Mike. went Best Denki and ate Cafe Cartal! guess what! 50% disc for snackers & coffee drinks! woohoo! we order waffle fries, spicy drumlets, 2 oreo frappes and 2 caramel frappes, total is only $16!

was super funny when we were walking to mrt via underpass, Ylva touched Mike's mole at his neck and said Press the button, Mike was on the phone, gave a very big reaction and said Stop pressing the button! laughed our ass off!

right before i type this sentence @ 12.13am, wished Xiao Di happy friendship day! time flies huh.. it's been 4 months!

i know, im stupid. im wasting my time. im foolish. im brainless. im useless. i kept saying i wanting to let go. but, i cant. i wont want as well. i still love him as much as day 1, in fact, much more. it seems that im avoiding him, it seems that he is avoiding me as well. i have no intention to get into a new relationship with any other guy. what can i do? just wait and wait and wait. im lived to waste my time. that's all.

2009-05-08T23:07:00.003+08:00

today.
another dedication post.
this time round, is to Toh Kai Jie, aka KJ.

He is StarHub Sales Hotline 1630 InboundSales Supervisor.. until today.

I can still remember. From the first few days at work, he introduced himself to me, to facing certain disputes/billing error, to waving Peace sign to me.

He is a really nice superior, never fails to joke with us and makes the working environment much much stress-less.

What's more, before he left the office, he waved the last Peace sign to me, after waving goodbye to everyone. It's damn saddening but of course, i dint cry la!

Last email, with heading "Farewell." is really damn saddening as well.

KJ, definitely u wont be reading this post. However, really wish u all the best for everything ahead. It's really nice knowing u. Thanks for all the advise as well.

:D

2009-05-06T22:47:00.003+08:00

today.
a dedication post to my sister.

my sister is the best sister in the whole wide world.

2/3 days before, she passed me a highlighter that she took from office, so that i can use it for sch/work. so i randomly asked her, does her office has sharpener? and she said shouldnt be.

so i thought. story should ended like that.

however.
yesterday, as i came home after going out with Lijia after sch, i was so super sleepy and i took a nap. i saw my sis came into my room and opened my cupboard, forgotten what she did already.
i woke up and watched tv with my sis, she did not mention anything at all.

after tv, i opened my cupboard, to my surprise, i saw a sharpener! i know it was my sis placed it for me... silently..

after i saw the sharpener, i cried immediately (of course no one knows la)
and i realised how good my sister is..

- she will change my bedsheet EVERYTIME as i seriously do not have the time and dont even know how often i changed =x
- she will collect my washed clothes and placed them on my bed.. *i admit, i lazy..
- she takes super good care for her husband and the doggies!

i wanna thank her..
for providing such a wonderful house for me. i believe both of us know, previous house is like a big hell. im so glad, i stay in Commonwealth, so near to mrt, with 2 cute doggies to play with. my life changed totally after shifting to here.

i wanna wish her all the best. forever happy and blessed with her hubby, a successful career and as rich as she can!

in conclusion.
i wanna thank my sister!

2009-05-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

today.

despite of e emo post below. its quite a happy day.

work today is rather stress-free. though there's a few disputes as promo has ended. what's more it's been a long time since i topped Inbound calls as YL is not working today!

lunched today with Mike, Willie and Gerald @ Cuppage! its pretty good to have lunch other than boring places like park mall, haw par centre itself and ps!

and and and.. i am going to watch One Piece very soon!

2009-05-02T22:32:00.001+08:00

做人看似简单。其实并不容易。
爱一个人很容易。但是忘记一个人很难。

已经快三个月了。

我相信，如果时间可以倒流，我还是会喜欢他。就算结果也是一样。我觉得，我一定会更珍惜他。

现在的我。只是默默地等待，心里许着小小的愿望，希望能在他的身边。。
现在的我。只能做的。就是让自己忙一点，多和朋友相处，逛多一点街！

还是方大同的歌词说的＂至少我们中还有人能快乐这样就已足够了＂

真的，已经足够了。
(:

2009-04-27T22:47:00.001+08:00

ever since last sat.

i have been feeling huge sense of lost.

reason being. i felt sooo tired. ever since i started my Yr 2 journey w RP.

i know. it's my choice. to becoming a Full time student n part time staff @ StarHub. but. it is super tiring. i do not know. is it still worth it. will ppl understand my situation n stand in my shoe to think.

it is REALLY not easy to cope studies n work at e same time. BUT. i need e diploma. i need e salary as well.

n now e issue is. i dont even know how long i can stay at SH. i hv always tis feeling tat my bosses cant wait to get rid of us. since last yr when they transferred half of my batch to TM.

i do wish. i can either be a full time student now n enjoy my student life as much as i wan. Or. Quit sch n becoming a full time staff at SH.

but i cant do neither way. i seriously do not know. how much ppl will appreciate my commitment etc.

on e other hand. feel so sick of relationship as well. n i do now wish to lie to my new classmates. they r good ppl.

in conclusion. tis is just an emo post. N i will not breakdown no matter wat!

2009-04-24T00:07:00.003+08:00

I wanna own this!!!

today on my way home from work, after separating with Samuel, saw my GESS senior at raffles place. He is currently working at StarHub as well. After chatting with him until i alighted, i only then realised.. i dint even know his name =/

im sort of looking forward to tomorrow's lesson!

time.. to really give up.

2009-04-23T13:30:00.001+08:00

last night.

i had this dream..

i held his hand. i love him.

but the love did not returned to me.

conclusion: dreams can be so realistic......

2009-04-21T23:29:00.008+08:00

yesterday.
back to sch! class @ E26L. seems like im joining year 3 SIT's class today. =(
team mates not too bad. faci not too bad, as he likes my case study!
breakfast with Joyce and her friend.

after sch, off to Haw Par to collect my charger from Thomas. and went chinatown to buy shampoo and toothbrush.. its really damn cheap!

at night. celebrated Yuuki's birthday! both Yuuki and Chibi were really damnnn cute when they wear the birthday hat!

This is the birthday that my sis bought!

With dog bone design somemore!

Was really laughing my stomach off when trying to take pictures of them!

the happy us :D

today.
class @ E66N. my class is really damn far can.
faci is damn cool. allows 5 mins grace. thanks to Nigel huh..
at least im in the same class as Nigel *again
i got him to join my group and im not that boring in class!
and he wore Hot Blood shirt.. reminded me of YL..

breakfast with Joyce n her friend again. and i met up with Xue jun, Nabilah and Haziriah for lunch!

after sch, Lijia dar was so so nice to accompany me to go town to search for birthday present!
wanted to head to Ben & Jerry's free cone day, but ended up.... =(

however, a woman suddenly approached me at the cathay and i had free eyebrow styling!

photos for today.
Central cafe @ TAKA reminded me of the first outing with him on 14 jan. =(

tired me. was rather pisssed today. NOW. disappointing as well. but i asked for it. =(

shall rest now as im working full shift tomorrow.

2009-04-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

Hello world! Im at cine now. Lijia just finish her meal n off to Ben n Jerry's now!

2009-04-19T22:03:00.002+08:00

just a short post before i end my day.

after today. i dunno whether..
i will be bothering about him

i will still be reminded when.....
e first n last movie stubs tat we watched tgt
first meal @ HK cafe
e passport stamp on 21 jan09
that table where we sat at Commonwealth's LJS
he waited for me @ commonwealth mrt
he acc me to buy Piene cardin wallet
bought shoe @ fareast
ate Ben & Jerry's @ the cathay
ate my first pepper lunch @ suntec
walked from queenstown mrt to my home

i dunno.. whether u will reminded of me when..
u using ur phone daily
u brush ur teeth daily
u wear Black chamber tshirt
u use ur timebell
n the rest of above...

not trying to sound so serious la. just that, will schooling keeps me more occupied n refrain myself thinking so much? i hope i am. i hope i can too.

and today, Xiao di pang seh me for dinner! =((
but was promised a big swensen feast on fri! :D
make sure!

2009-04-19T15:35:00.002+08:00

YAWN.
Last day of 3 mths holiday today. =((

Nevertheless, sort of looking forward to sch life.
i guess i am nervous?
haha. think i am behaving like a Pri 1/Sec 1 sch kids.

i hope..
i can do well better in sch and work
better GPA.. lesser disputes.. make more n better friends..
happier life..

i dunno..
whether i had let go..
no point keep saying i love you when i get nothing back..
i dunno..
how to manage my life better

sense of lost out of sudden.
no worries. im not being emo.

i am happy today as Celia is back! :D
and we had a very nice n full meal together with Samuel and Tan Chin Ping.

24 hours from now, i will be sitting in E26L classroom studying sales management!
and i wanna eat breakfast with Joyce and Xue jun during first break!
and i wanna buy my favourite chocolate waffle at W4 canteen!!

cant wait to go back to sch............. to eat my fav food!

and it's Yuuki's birthday tomorrow! i love celebrations.

photos of Yuuki to be up soon!

2009-04-16T22:15:00.005+08:00

Im damn bloody happy today! *very very wide smile!

Reason being.. Ayumi Hamasaki's limited edition "Next Level" album in usb stick IS HERE! Its really so damn nice and cool!

But im still awaiting for local edition one as i need the premium countdown live concert cd!

However, new album in usb stick is good. Reason being i can bring it anywhere. BUT, even the lyrics booklet is in PDF format, which means i can only view it on my lappy. =((

When i reached home from work, saw this box and attn to me...

When i opened up, this appeared! So nicely wrapped up!

This is the USB stick!

NAH!

To "proof" that this is really an limited edition (:

And happy me!

Shoo-ed listening to her album! More other pictures to come!

2009-04-13T22:52:00.002+08:00

7 days later. i will be back, becoming RP Year 2 student.

changes are coming..
waking up at 745am, reaching school at 915am.
back to StarHub working 6-9pm shift except wed n weekends.
knowing dunno-how-many new classmates.

all e best to me!

2009-04-12T18:08:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

*rather accurate.
resources - http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2009-04-12T10:47:00.003+08:00

blogging @ work.

v nice chatting via ebuddy using phone with Yong Liang for 3 hours last night.

this is what he told me..

indians ask for free

chinese ask for more

malays ask for disc

funny right?

YAWN. im late for work again today.

2009-04-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

today.
back to work to replace my off day for tomorrow. initally morning shift. but ended up full shift. Celia had to fight $10 allowance for me.

went for lunch with Winnie and it's been a long time since i had lunch at MS. but i prefer dry chicken noodle. their ice lemon tea damn rocks.

anyway, contacted my ex's dad for DVNP. while on the phone with him, had been trying to recall his looks as well as my ex's mum. but i can only managed to recall Xie Shun's dad's look as i just saw him 2 wks ago? haiz.

work today is pretty happy, despite Wayne fell down at home in the toliet. omg. rest well ba. dunno whether i should c u on sat? haha.

life is getting kind of weird nowadays. and i dunno why? people that i used to close with, no longer now? people that im not to close with, are close now? people that i used to close with, no longer closed before but getting closer now?

haiz. i do have a simple wish now. to be close with everyone w/o any back stabbing. i dunno how to begin with it. but i am trying my best.

have been thinking. am i being compromising in relationship? is that good or bad?

put aside all the thinkings.. i just hope i will be happy.

smile!

anyway, since its my off day tomorrow, will be going tampines mall! i shall shop like mad!

happily chatting via msn now! (:

2009-04-07T23:00:00.002+08:00

today.

specially coming online now just to blog on something.. My ex bf's parent turned out to be my cust!

Actually i received the leads from Cindy on sunday already. just that i didn't realised it. Was thinking whether i should call or not as my colleagues had already called previously. I decided to call still as i want to get the sales and wanting to cfm whether he is the one.

I already saw e email add, was my ex's sis. So i'd already 80% cfm and esp, their surname is Hon. And i called. Spoke to cust, my ex's bf. Obviously mandarin speakin. He wasnt sure whether did his daughter sent in the form. and he asked me to speak to......... his son. -.-

He passed the phone and then.. a young guy took over the call. seriously im not v sure whether he is my ex or his younger bro. Wanting to ask him straight, are you Wai Hong or Choon Hong? hahaha. obviously i didnt. And then, cust asked me to call his daughter directly..

Called twice but no ans. So i sent online sms for her to call in. And she did. and then, i private sms her n asked her whether she still rmb me.

Isnt life really full of surprising? I did not get in touch with that family for 6++ years and now, they are in turn my cust?

And then, on my way home from work, recalled the past. That family really treated me v well. My ex bf's dad drove me and my ex to tiong bahru market to have chicken rice. His mum will come and talk to me in my ex's bedroom. His sis will lend me her nail polish (and she doesnt even lend to her friends), his younger bro will cheer me up via msn, telling me not to be sad when i quarrelled with him, and after i broke up w him. And of course, my ex. He used to treat me v well. He had alot of patience when going after me, even though at that time i had someone else in mind. But ended up, we broke up because of insignificant issue. and i took 2-3 yrs to let go. I really treated them like my very own family during that time. I can still remember, i liked Ayumi since "I am.." album and that's when i got to know him in Gan Eng Seng, yr 2002..

Nevertheless. those happended 7 yrs ago and we are having our own life. You guys had shifted house and my ex had gotten new gf. I do miss those times.. haizzzz.

I shall wait till Serene email me the form and i will contact them again.........

alrite. i shall better have to turn in early since im not feellin too well now and i am work full shift tomorrow! and since he is not online as well.

YAWN!

2009-04-06T23:53:00.002+08:00

5 apr 2009, sun

this day. i super admire myself. i think on this day. Elaine damn rocks. i shall not reveal the rest.

today.

a day out with Pei Shan. We ate and talked alot and watched Confession of Shopaholic. Funny! i think im gonna run 2 more rounds tomorrow to kill those irritating fats.

haha!

2009-04-04T19:19:00.002+08:00

Pls refer to Aarti's blog post on 2 apr regardin to class outing on 1st apr!

haiz. miss u guys already!

today is a freaking boring day. had my lunch at ps with Gab for indonesian food. that makes me happy. (: and then 2nd break we went to buy Eskimo bubble tea. this makes me happy too. But now, freaking bored!!!

haizzzzz

2009-04-02T23:33:00.002+08:00

today.

dunno y. is a freaking boring day. at least i closed 5 sales.

i think i know why today is freaking bored. both my Sup and TL will be away until 6 apr. =((

also. Ayumi's album is still not out yet. =((

im starting to understand myself more and better.

i think i need a change. in all ways. which includes my living habits, my way of communicating with people.. etc etc. as im quite sick of handling unnecessery "disputes" with people around me. if i did a change earlier, will things become different now? anyway, i think i need to love my dog more too. (:

as for now, i am only looking forward to mon, which is my very next off day and i wanna watch movie!

somehow, i find myself rather blessed too. noticed that it seems that i am the first dv temp so far from what i know that was allowed to come back OT half day? im thankful for that too.

i hope..........

2009-04-01T23:45:00.004+08:00

today.
back to work OT from 920am to 150pm. kinda funny. msg Wayne @ 1143pm yesterday n requested OT from him. no reply from him so i slept. woke up because of my phone ringing tone. Replied msg from him say "?????? So?" @ 739am. So i replied "it's ok den" and went back to slp. And then, he called me @ 817am and approved my OT. 100% woke up immediately and rush to bathe. think my mum got a shock. flied down @ 920am. -.-

luckily it wasnt april fool joke from him.

after OT went orchard for "W45H class outing". me, Xue Jun, Weiliang, Jie Min, Joyce, Noriz, Indah, Nabilah and Aarti.

had Seoul garden for lunch. i had lotssss of prawns. wahahaha. shiokness. and then we shopped around far east, wheelock place and taka/wisma. lotss of jokes happened. look out for Aarti's blog!

i am super happy today cause i got to see my dearest classmates and i bought lots of things!

*yawn. i shall turn in now as im so gonna wake up early tomorrow for mornin jog!
PM shift tmr!

*e feelin is never good when you are havin cold war with your friend. =(

2009-03-30T01:18:00.003+08:00

蔡依林-离人节

在我们的故事写下结局前
请你聆听最后尾奏的音乐
幸福渐远心跳渐弱
回音在休止符后停留了好久
当每一个当下变成过去后
自由也许是离人们的折磨
在狂欢时寂寞从绝望里复活
才明白爱会随时间逐渐成熟

从那一天原谅你的瞬间
我不过情人节我和未来不再相恋
爱断了线于是我每天都过想你的离人节
不再见面不代表我不再对你想念
你是曾经的永远会永远在我身边

当每一个当下变成过去后
自由也许是离人们的折磨
在狂欢时寂寞从绝望里复活
才明白爱会随时间逐渐成熟

从那一天放开你的瞬间
我不过情人节除非未来还会出现
爱断了线我如何能不再过想你的离人节
希望这是最后一次向最爱说再见
也希望下个永远会永远在我身边

This song is so totally represents my thoughts now.

I hope.. 1 day he will understand..

2009-03-27T22:34:00.002+08:00

Take good good care Fauziah. Really nice knowing u for e past 7 mths. Time flies huh? U r someone that is always so damnnn cheerful n outgoing. Thanks for hearing all my nonsenses all these while too. I will miss u callin me fat fat! Anyway i think the pics that we took today damn rocks la! (:

Quite looking forward to sun as i can get to eat lunch with Xiao Di again. It's been reaaaallllly a long long time. Think i will have endless words to say to him. Or should i say, to update him?

I'm gonna remind myself to go down to Heeren tomorrow after work to check out Ayumi's latest album!

2009-03-25T23:35:00.005+08:00

today.
will be a thank-you time.

all these while.. a big thank-you to..

Eugene, Ylva, Celia, Wayne, Sok Feng, Eric, Pei Shan, Wei liang, Xue Jun, Joyce, Shi Qi, Xie Shun, Jun Hong, Christopher, Judy, Jie Min, Jia Hui, Duncan, Cindy, Fauziah, Elmi.. (names are mentioned randomly)

Eugene - knows everything since day 1. he is someone that listened almost ALL of my complains and vent my anger on. Really (and no choice) listening to me repeating all over n over again.

Celia - for encouragin me to move on

Sok Feng - im aware that i am not e only one and tellin me not to be sad

Jun Hong - for telling me "no point dragging" and thus allowed me to have the courage to ask

Wei liang - another one that knows everything since day 1. thanks for listenin to me as well.

Fauziah - thanks for askin me "do you love him"

Elmi - thanks for tellin me not to give up initally.

to e rest as well..
thanks for listening / asking / hearin me mentioning abt things between me and that person. all e complains and whining that i'd expressed. thanks for all e advices as well. anyway, things dint turned out the way that i wanted to be. no choice. so do stop asking me with regards to this issue anymore. and i hope Wayne will be the last person to ask me today. like what i mentioned to him, already "case closed".

i have been asking myself alot of questions. all regarding...
"Since he XXX, he should be liking me'' OR at least, before..

aiya. no point pondering. wat's past is past. let it be ba. at least i got to know Fang Da Tong's great music. (:

tomorrow will be a better day!

2009-03-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

Once again. I'm blogging on phone.

will be uploading some pics on my next post. Wahaha.

Anyway. Everything has ended. I shall laugh at my stupidNess, n too much of self-assumin. 我承认，我因为不能得到他而哭了。仔细想想, 太笨了。e only thing i hope is tat we can still remain gd frens. N of cos, i will smile n move on. I will not be a weakling like wat others n myself think. So. 14 Jan to 21 mar, everything is just a dream. A nice dream afterall. I hv learn n grown alot. Perhaps, I'm not fit to involve in a relationship. Tis is e 3rd time I'd involved in a office-relationship. N none of them succeed. I'm rather sick of it already.

yesterday
went The Pasta Shop for lunch w mum. *my mum is pro at choosing place ya? N costed me $40 plus for tis meal. -.- anyway happy belated birthday!
after meal. Shopped ard tiong n went back. Met Xie shun at nite over at ps. Went to watch movie. Hotel for Dogs. A very heart-warming n we had a gd laugh. (: after movie he acc me to office to take my charger. Halim was still in office so had a short chat w him. Xie shun cabbed back to camp n i trained home. Bought Mr bean for supper as well.

today. 2nd off day
had a v gd long slp, stayed at home watched tv n.... I mopped e floor! It's been a long long time since i last did house chore. Think it was my last closing at earle swensen? Haha. N i went to tiong to hv a stroll. Took 6 donuts for free. Tks to xue jun for e voucher!

another workin day tmr. Cant wait for my next off day and sch to start!

2009-03-21T19:40:00.002+08:00

Anyway i got to know my new classes as well. And also who will be my new classmates. 3 different classes among 4 sch days. ?!?!

E66N / E26L / E56H

All e best to me. Perhaps when sch reopen, WED will be my favourite day among all.

sometimes i cant wait for sch to start. Cause i wanna be happy.

2009-03-21T18:17:00.002+08:00

today.
Longest talktime so far. 1 hr 21mins 3 sec. -.- Broke my previous record of 56 mins. Nevertheless, caller was rather nice la. Just that she asked alot of questions. Ranging from mol promos, to hub club membership, to how old i am, which sch im studying, and her son's education journey. -.- hopefully she will send me a compliment letter (:

And i got a dispute case. very similar to what i gotten previously. same incident, same salesperson. Should advise you guys from signing up @ PS shop, a particular salesperson. haha!

Another dispute case is customer threathen to make police report and to sue us. dotsssss.

I am in a midst of making a decision. I hope i am bold enough. All e best to me.

I am sad too as i am not given approval by Wayne to work OT tomorrow. =((

Nevertheless, happy birthday to Mrs Lee / Mdm Wong!
msg to u (despite u will never know how to read my blog =p) - i hope i can be a better daughter, less rude to you, more obedient to you, coming home more often, giving you more financial support. im sorry that i am working full today and not able to spend the day with you.

I shall make my way home today and spend time with you for the last 3 hrs.

2009-03-18T12:20:00.003+08:00

yesterday.

another working day. was exceptionally boring and i dunno why.

i left my book in office and my friends seems not able to find it. SH peeps, pls handle with care if u get to see it n keep it for me alrite? The book is Curious Case of Benjamin Button. i just bought it on tues only lei.. =((

however, went out with Ylva and Cindy after work. we had a very nice meal at Heeren's Waraku Japanese Restaurant. And we gotten $41 vouchers for next visit. Wahahahaha. and then we shopped around heeren and far east.

I realised, shopping at far east seems to be a torture for me. =( my friends know why. and when i got home, i had a big cry again. Not because i am sad. I just don't understand why. it's the past that keeps holding me back. i have alot of words to say to him.

STOP BEING EMO!

anyway, i bought myself a very nice shade at far east as well. (:

today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YLVA NG XIU YUAN!

enjoy ur day!

gonna bath now or else i will be late meeting Jia Hui!

2009-03-16T23:16:00.004+08:00

today. is a pleasant day.

saw Willie at mrt and we went to work together. I think im pretty hardworking today. Haa. Had mos burger for lunch with Ylva, Cindy, Thomas and Willie. After work went town with Ylva. I bought 4 books at Borders! I am a happy girl. (:

This is Ylva and me. I think we look great. (:

And when i get home, i made brownie cake! Tahdah! This is my very first attempt and i think it went well. Room for improvement!
And this is my dog's sexy butt. (:

I think im pretty pack this week.

BYE!

2009-03-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

today. my off day!

had my day out with Wei liang. as usual. went alot of places!

1stly, had lunch at LJS. ate seafood combo! (: after that headed to Suntec IT show! wanted to sign up MOL w free LCD tv but after thinking through and suggestions from Andrew n my sis, decided not to. Dint get to see Xue Jun although she is working there. =( nevertheless, there is also sales for Body shop. bought some stuff from there.

after that, went back to ms to open an UOB a/c for myself. applying for NOW card!

and then, went to cine for movie! Coming Soon. It's damn scary but yet a very nice show. But ending isnt that good. had meal at kobayashi as well.

then, walk to ps to buy biscuit at marks and spencer. n home sweet home.

i feel like buyin so many things and do so many things~

-a running shoe + sports wear

-a cd player with speaker

- LCD TV for my room!

- taking up driving lesson

- start makin my caramel pudding~

etc etc.

yawn. workin tmr!

2009-03-12T23:51:00.005+08:00

was blog hopping just now.

to my very very surprise. saw Wei liang's post on 9 mar. He wrote song based on my relationship with YL... i cried immediately. Thanks alot Wei Liang. Really appreciate that. no deny that i still like him. But thanks to me, u have more inspiration ya?

That's right, what's past is past. i will use my love more wisely and spread it for my friends. But, it's this song lyrics that keeps me going. 至少我们中还有人能快乐这样就已经够了. really make sense right.

the usual elaine will be back.

soon. (:

2009-03-08T16:19:00.003+08:00

today.
supposed to be my off day. but im back to office for OT. gd anyway since i can claim double pay. woohoo. i am pretty happy today as Ayumi's Asia Tour 2008 has finally launched! i shall chiong home to watch tonight.

listening 三人游 on my phone now. I love this song more and more.

It's really time to start living w/o u. Perhaps, time will really lead the way.
至少我们中还有人能快乐这样就已足够了

2009-03-05T23:12:00.004+08:00

source - http://www.yesasia.com/global/orange-moon-valentines-limited-edition-cd-dvd-taiwan-version/1014366972-0-0-0-en/info.html

I bought this yesterday!

Today.
No idea why i am real emo today. Even my sup Wayne realised it. But pls don't be mistaken that i emo because of someone else ok! It's still E71.. =( Work today is real boring. and i had to go home alone as xiao di is off today. sigh.

I told myself to be strong. I realised that i can't. How i wish i can laugh like nobody's business. Something is just pulling myself from doing that. I know. No use being emo. I can't force anything. I can't force Yong Liang to be together with me. The only solution.. is to move on. N one can teach me how to do it. I can only rely on myself. How i wish i can say to him.. Love me pls. But i can't do that right? Like what i mentioned previously, i must be mature..

Have been thinking, how will my life be if i have a totally different life? How my life will be if i.. not studying in RP? not working in StarHub? did not know him at all? Will i be happier? Will i be able to get a better guy?

How i wish i can just settle down now. =(

Like what he said. I think im real mad le.. HOW?!

On a happy note.. *forcing myself not to be emo

im thinking of learning how to... cook! wahaha. let's start from.. SOUP? think i can make it ba. haha!

*off sourcing for soup recipe!

2009-03-02T23:45:00.002+08:00

today.
spent my day pretty well.
Happy birthday to Willie Koh Guo Jin! (:
green because green tea is ur favourite. haha!
Find your Huang Rong soon ok!

reached office slighly earlier than usual.
damn lots of calls. =/

break-ed with Andrew and Willie.
Treated birthday boy a meal.
no idea why i treated Andrew drinks also.
sorry i dont earn alot ok..

YL came over and tok to me regarding work.
was damn nervous at that point of time. im mad?
but he stopped replying my mail when i came back from break. :((
watever la.

2nd break-ed w Willie only. Andrew ps us. :(
bought green milk tea from eskimo. damn nice!
saw YL, JH and Mike on our way back to office. expected. YL dao me.

Celia bought me birthday present! :D

today is Max's last day of work. :( lesser n lesser DV temp left le. seriously i dont know how i long i will/can stay in SH inbound sales. I dunno if i love my job or not. But definitely, is the people there that makes me enjoy staying there, and of course the pay!

after work went to pioneer to have supper with xiao di. Took train all the way to joo koon just to take a look. new mrt stations are so damn cool! anyway food at pioneer are nice! expecting to see myself eating supper over there frequently already.

reflection - i do not really know whether is it worth it. to spend my time, my youth, my opportunity for other guys just for him. i dont even know when can i ever get a response. like what i told xiao di. i just need an answer! nothing can ever deny that i love you. i am not expecting anything from you. i just need a response from you. seriously do not what i can/should do. but i know, i mustn't pressure you. i will be happy as long as you are happy. last sat, i hope i played a part in helping u, in any way. unknowingly, you revolve all around my life totally. everything i do, everywhere i go, i will think for you. i bought green tea chocolate, first thing i will think is, must share with you! work, must help you clear onyx! must brainwash cust to take up DV numbers ending with 73! Fang da tong's songs rocks because of you. i think im totally mad. :( but i will be strong, i will be happy. for you. was doing a mass cleanup for my phone inbox. was reading your past smses, do you really meant those words? words including i love you and i miss you? esp sms when you sent on 14 jan 12am plus? :((

what can i do????

2009-02-27T01:05:00.002+08:00

not sure whether i have moved on in life.

blog song currently, singalongsong. Is for u. this song is my 24hr song on my mp3 now. this song represents u totally. this song becomes so rocks because of u.

thanks to everyone including u for all the birthday wishes. be it msn, blogs, sms, hand shakes etc.

20 years old already. i have told myself. i must grow up. no longer throwing temper, being a spoiled brat. and in handling relationship, i MUST be mature.

similarly to my previous post, i love u and i always do.

2009-02-18T00:11:00.003+08:00

today.

im emotionally breakdown. all of a sudden, i feel so scared. and i just teared at commonwealth mrt with so many people passin by.

after thinking, am i really that hateful? am i really that selfish? am i so acting cute? so many "am i" coming through my mind. But thanks for being frank with me.

im really really scared. seriously speaking, i dont mind the whole world hating me. except him. i do not want to see him ignoring me, treating me as stranger. in fact he is doing that right now. wanting to have a heart to heart talk with him. i suddenly felt that i have no position to do that.

i really really scare of losing him. i do not want to see things happening like this now. what can i do? what shall i do? how can i do? can anyone tell me? im feeling real miserable.

im hating myself more n more. how i wish i can end my life now and restart all over again.

can anyone tell me what to do? i feel so lost. =(

after this post, another round of crying. bet i will c myself with swollen eyes tomorrow when i wake up.

but at least, i am able to cry all my hearts out. perhaps i will feel better afterwards.

wont be blogging anymore. so i decided to open up my blog. maybe the very next time i will blog is....... when i have moved on in life? but right now, pls allow me to say one last time. this moment, 18 feb, 1221am, i love Lua Yong Liang. i will really love you as long as i live. but i know, i am not allowed to. i do not care how many friends around me that keep saying me dumb, stupid for doing so much for you, i love you for who you are and what you are.

perhaps, 20th birthday this year will be spending alone at home. hiding myself at one corner. or maybe i will buy my favourite cake at NYDC with 1 candle, sing Happy Birthday to myself. hmm no, i wont be spending alone. i have Yuki and Chibi with me at home.

alrite. g2g. im prepared to cry all out. tomorrow, can i still be myself?

lastly, very lasssstttt timeeeeeeeee. Lua Yong Liang, i love you.

2009-02-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

My heart is in a mess.
I'm so mixed feeling now.
right now, i miss him like mad, pissed off with him, yearning to hear his voice n to entertain me, angry w him, needs him......

valentine's day despite wasn't spent w him. I had a pretty good time w xie shun, n his frens, Daniel n shan shan. Went yuan dian pub for singing n drinkin. Despite atmosphere wasn't tat pleasant. But tks for makin e nite great. At least, I'm not staying at home crying alone. :(

and reached home exceptionally late. 2plus in e mornin. N caused me to be late for work. At least i ended work at 730, just nice can go n hv dinner w xiao di. Woohoo. Had dinner at cafe cartel. Nice one!

at least today at work i was pretty cheerful? Haiz. I seriously do not know how to behave tmr.

how i wish i can cry my hearts out. N i will be able to move on? But now, i cant even shear a tear out. At least, i really hope tat i can handle tis maturely.

Alrite. Another workin day tmr. All e best to me.

2009-02-14T20:34:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to all~

Right now. Im feeling unhappy. Real unhappy. Though i dont show it out.
Thoughout the whole day, all my mind is him, him, and him. Yes, Lua Yong Liang.

Seriously i do not know what's going on between both of us right now. But somehow i know the answer. I know, i should not be too over-emotional over him. Nevertheless, i cant stop feeling that. Thank god there's Jun Hong and Sok Feng in the office for me to complain/whine on.

Suddenly, i feel so insecure, huge fear within me. I dunno how to carry on my life, without him. Seems that i can, im startin to feel that i can no longer do that.

However, seems that it's time for me to give up. To prevent greater disappointment.
But right now, i love you. Nothing can ever deny this. ):

Time to move on. Time to step out of comfort zone. Time to get over.

2009-02-13T03:39:00.002+08:00

New blog skin!

Not fully done yet. So bear with me alrite!

Have been reading my past posts from feb 07 until now. Realised that i have really changed alot. And my life seems interesting huh?! From days in GESS, to Earle Swensen's, to RP sem 1 and 2.. Realised that from 5 jan, all my posts have been mentioning abt him?

Have not been talking to him for more than 24 hours! Luckily work was pretty busy or else... haiz.

Valentine's day coming soon. I dont expect anything on that day. Serious. Think i'll just happily working full shift that day ba. And soon, 20th birthday comin soon.

Wow it's 4.06am now! i have been listening Singalongsong non-stop for the past 2 hours!

Off to you-tube now!

2009-02-11T00:38:00.005+08:00

I love this song alot today.

Was watching MTV china at home before i go work. Saw this music video and immediately i love this song.

anyway. i had indicated everything that i wanted to say to him already. e rest lies with fate ba. (:
really thanks to friends around me that had advised me. allows me to react and see things more differently. otherwise, im afraid i will handle this relationship really badly.

happy 1mth friendship day friend! its really really nice to have u as my "xiao di".really thanks for all the advises, e time to hear all my complaints and whining, and also e supper times!

i shall, will be a happy girl. with and also without you, Lua Yong Liang. (:
today shall mark the last day whereby i will cry because of u.

LASTLY! Happy 6 months to me and StarHub! (:

Working in StarHub allows me to learn alot of things. To see the real working life, office politics etc.. nevertheless, i learnt to handle stress better, knowing so many great people and also earning my first 2.2k (:

2009-02-11T00:31:00.002+08:00

梁咏琪-礼物
作曲:梁咏琪填词:梁咏琪编曲: johnny yim

女人都渴望归属可是热情怎样保持温度 oh
眼泪是快乐的附属却又让我驯服

终于一天看清楚能够爱过痛过也算幸福
这一路的旅途风光明媚还是绝路都是昨天笑忘书

每个人都有一份礼物就是为另外一个人付出
没经历过挥之不去的痛苦不懂珍惜手中的礼物
每个熟悉的哀乐喜怒藏在心里最温暖的深处
王子公主谁能逃得过痛哭能够勇敢爱下去是最好的礼物

今天我已经领悟今天就是礼物

2009-02-08T20:47:00.002+08:00

Im so pissed today. Right now even.
I shall hack care already. Who cares abt u?????
Luckily i still have friends to stand by me now.
At least im not that alone.
Im siao right? watever!

Anyway, im working FULL on next sat. HAPPY?

*i think im gone case. =(

Off work soon!

2009-02-06T01:15:00.001+08:00

Haiz. I think i just saw something that i shouldnt see. C, im emo now already. but. emo for wat?

weird me. Better slp le la! Tomorrow still got to work *Despite is afternoon shift.

2009-02-05T23:31:00.003+08:00

Right before i started blogging, was reading Xue Jun's blog.
sort of touching la~ when my name was mentioned (of course she will la! wahahaha)

hmm. well, been enjoying my holidays for 2weeks already. Im starting to miss W45H already. =(
Picnic at East coast on wed!! woohoo! im so willing to take off on wed just to get to see you guys, despite not able to see him. =(

ever since holidays, its all abt work, and work. Only things that are interesting is to "fight" for answering many inbound calls as possible, daily lunch time and also supper with friend. And also, my off day!

Off day on tues was a.. Thumbs up! Seriously i love spending time with him. (:
wahahaha.
1st stop. lunched at Vivo's White Dog cafe. So sorry that i made my food seems untouched. =( promise i will finish my food next time.
next. movie. The Punisher. that movie was... -.- super violence! but still.. nice la.
next. trained to orchard. and i gotten my new wallet and new shoe!
haiz. seems im always one who shops alot.
next. trained to commonwealth n had long john for supper. seriously i enjoying being sent home by him. (: and luckily, he finally bought something! Toothbrush at seng siong. -.-

no idea why. although i get to see him everyday, i still miss him alot. nowadays, whenever i see him, i will either smile or laugh. perhaps, seeing him is really the nicest thing happening around me. and today, when Jeremy asked me for my number, i accidently just say out his number. seems that im more familar with his number than my very own number.

supper today after work is shiokness! thanks friend for the time! really glad you are sharing alot about yourself and more suppers to come! 5 more days before our 1 mth friendship day! (:

msn with ShiQi just now.

.+. angelic-loves .+. says (11:45 PM):
thanks for being there for me with an open arms and still regard me as your friend after all these years of friendships. :)
.+. angelic-loves .+. says (11:46 PM):
don't know why im so sentimental today. i just want to let you know that, i really do cherish our friendship, alot. :)

Me too! (:

i miss him i miss him i miss him. looking forward to sat to come! ((:

2009-01-31T18:26:00.003+08:00

On thurs.

I cried for the very first time because of him.

Today.

Will be my second time, right here in the office.

No idea what to do next for now.

It isn't his fault. The problem lies with me.

I'm just behaving like a kid all the time.

I get jealous easily, keep holding on things/people to me.

I am a selfish person. I do not think for others.

...

I know i sounded damn emo. In fact i am.

I will be fine soon.

Seems that i'm letting my sup down also. =(.

I'm starting to hate myself.

2009-01-25T18:34:00.004+08:00

YAWN~
happy reunion dinner everyone.
me? sittin down here in office typing this.
waitin for bo liao people to call in.
and now Willie is standin behind me readin this.
*and he's still readin. haha!

It's really a super borin day, as compared to yesterday..
at least i still have Celia & Fauziah to accompany me.
Call stats today is real little..
At least YL still bothers to msg me.. (:
miss him like mad la!
not too long ago, he asked me again this..
"eh ... u got tell anyone in ur class tat u like me ? "
ARGH! it's super frustrating can?
sigh..
think few days later, he will ask..
''eh ... u got tell ur family members tat u like me ? ''
so on and so on..

today i ate alot too.
breakfast - hotcakes meal
lunch - mos burger meal
tea break - cream puff
how abt later??

yawn. shall ciao n surf net!

*edited 7.27pm.
he has pissed me off again ):
y cant he understand how i feel and think for me before he posed tat question?

*edited 8.42pm

finally i told him how i feel. indeed i feel much better.

nevertheless, i still miss him. still tempted to take UL on wed to go out with him..

but i wanna earn $ like mad for this holiday!

2009-01-24T23:14:00.004+08:00

woohoo. i decided to private my blog again.
perhaps. my blog is not suitable for public views.
so which means, only my close friends will know everythin abt me here!
yes ah! this can really prevent those busybody people that doesn't know me well, to know things abt me. (:
which means.. i can openly express myself.. e real self.. =DD

today. super happy. though nothing much really happened.
YL was super nice today. to make up for that incident?
few things
-he accompanied me for lunch though his lunch time had already over. (or mayb he wants to slack more?)
-he still remembered what i mentioned to him earlier today even me myself almost forgot abt this.
-he seems jealous of somethin today!
-dunno why he kept mentioning on e hairband tat i bought in JB??
-and also somethin else tat he mentioned via sms *shy
-he is real super easy to make me smile and laugh (:

unknowingly, he has become part of my life.. really cant imagine my life without him.. =(
even if we will not be together in future, im really happy with what i have now.
because of him, i became more hyper/siao. n perhaps more likeable ^^
his future gf will be so fortunate to have him...

think will not be seein him till wed due to CNY. and argh im not workin on both days! wth. double pay gone..

b4 i real yawn damn loud..
yesterday marks the last day of my year 1 in RP. yes ah!
which means also.. it was the last day with W45H.
i sure miss u guys.. pls organise some outings!! i will definitely make out some time for u guys!
well, sort of lookin forward to my new class.. E6xx??

thurs supper after work was great too. thanks for toleratin my whining/complain. n also ur advices! indeed i felt much much better after that. thanks friend!

alrite. g2g!
err. can i say out loud somethin first b4 i go?
i love LYL!! i miss u too!

2009-01-23T11:00:00.001+08:00

喜欢你给我你的外衣
让我像躲在你身体里
喜欢你借我你的梳子
让我用柔软头发吻你
喜欢你车窗上的雾气
彷佛是你的爱在呼吸
喜欢你那微笑的眼睛
连日落也看作唇印
我喜欢这样跟着你随便你带我到哪里
你的脸慢慢贴近明天也慢慢地慢慢清晰
我喜欢你爱我的心轻触我每根手指感应
我知道它在诉说着你承诺言语