`I never love someone like that before. After so long, i thought i forgot him le. After seeing him today, the very moment i saw him, i realised that the feeling is still there, still as deep as before. Even the place where he walked past, i treasured it so so much. I specially walked back there just to "sense" his presence. Then i realised. Although he only turned back and looked back for that little while. I do really hope that the time won't stop and just simply stand there to look at him. But i know, NO USE.



`Had a heart to heart talk with mummy just now. we somehow sobbed. sad rite. after hearing from her. somehow agree with her. people just care for others for the sake of caring. and that's all. sighh.



`He msg me just now on my way to SUI!. I did hack care. But yeah, im not so bad la. msged him. He wanted to meet me but i can't make it after that. HF called me to work. Sighh.

`Long days after that.. Gonna busy with lots of stuff. Shall update soon! ^^

Haha. saw this at xie shun's blog.. quite interesting!

Does your name suits you?
A: Very Very Easy To Fall In Love With
B: single
C: Hot
D: Never Let People Tell You What To Do
E: Hot
F: Very Strong Hands
G: Has A Smile To Die For
H: Has A Smile To Die For
I: Beautiful/Handsome
J: very good shagger
K: makes people laugh
L: Love is
M: Very Very Hot
N: Has One of The Best Personalities
O: Popular With All Sorts of People
P: An Animal Lover
Q: ugly
R: Very Good Kisser
S: Has Beautiful Eyes
T: Is BANGABLE
U: Judgemental
V: yucks!
W: Loves It
X: Great Kisser
Y: Is Really Adorable
Z: Is Easy To Fall In Love With

Quite true lei! from the bottom of my heart^^

OMG!!! i wanna go!!!!!!!! got to really save up!!!i must go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think..
im back to normal..
no longer emo i think.. haha..
im so excited for so many things..
holidays coming..
staff outing tmr nite.. pub n ktv..
Entrepreneurship Carnival next sun..
SUI! camp 11-13 june.. overnight in RP n goin sentosa! omg.
shopping n ktv with friends..
imaginery person in my mind... he seems cute.. n nice.. n rich.. whahaha..
haha. im too bored tat's y.. being influenced by lijia mummy..
hmph.. ya and pay day comin soon. im broke today. no $ le.. sad rite..

Haha. this expression of him in kuitian ep4 is soooooo cute! so funny also. LOVE!

Yesterday.
Did not go to sch. Being psycho by my mum. And it was science module. And i was very sleepy when i woke up. So went back to sleep! Woke around noon time. So shuang! Met Serene after her sch to go ps for late lunch. Wanted to makan pizza hut but heard from Serene no more student meal. so makan swensen's instead. chatted alot. everything and anythin happened in Earle's. Ya. Im 想当年also. Went to work after tat. Guess what... FOUNTAIN!!

Firstly, i do really wanna thank Sir Simon for believing in me, knowing that i can do it (Unless particular manager out there), giving me opportunity to learn, put me sup of the day etc. These actions from him makes me believe that i can do it, can do much more that i have done. But fountain yesteday was really like shit. I forgot ALL fountain recipe! and jammed fountain immediately. and it's only mon night! e least busy nite of e week! i feel so... Ya USELESS. i feel like walkin out of fountain immediately. Feel like demote back to part timer. Even feel like resigning. BUT. i shall work hard. I will grab every opportunity wisely. i shall prove to those ppl that i cant do it. shall prove them wrong. ^^

anyway. feel better after talking on phone with yi xiu after work. ended up turned in late.

Today is so damn suay!!!
-Missed the bus. Next bus only come at 753am! Only reached tiong at 810am.
-Newspaper all given out le! So super not used without newspaper on train la!
-Mp3 no batt! im super bored on train la~
-Late for UT! Rushed from mrt to sch. Reached sch ard 905am. Up to class 910am. on my lappy (Even prompt me to change password at tis timing huh!!). Only left 18mins left! Sigh. Luckily managed to finish all.

Nvm la.
after sch met up with Pei shan! wanted to go expo ended up at T2. kept complain to her tat i wanna go overseas! Missed going HK. hor?

hmm. i wanna go shoppin with~
kek bing!
pei shan!
yi xiu (issue)!
seok hoon!
serene!

ohya. kbox too.
wanna join ms too. can i?

i feel im drifting apart from e36r. just feel la. dunno y. i do love them but.... feel tats a change in class. i somehow couldnt catch up. and feel so.... sometimes people r so fake. only follow wat people do. dont even have 个人风格? like today. i dont feel good in class. thank god holidays r comin real soon. i rather spend time with my real friends..... and work!

Today. Is like so mixed feeling la.



Went for teenage icon 08 audition. I know many of you will "HUH?!". Yes i know i know. But i really went. 99.999999999999...% sure wont get in de. Expected la actually. And it was very last min too. Anyway, it adds to my experience. in life and in singing~



Was late for work!!! Thanks to that stupid train at dhoby gahut. And that woman!! Only reached outlet ard 1215pm. surprisingly that HF will put me cashier. work was pretty ok la. quite relaxing. went first break. so fun durin makan! keryn and i were like kept laughin at people.

did runner for nite shift. thanks to HF. and i was kena tricked!!!!!! Sandy jie asked me to clean baby chairs. so i pushed the baby chairs to cashier store room. & sir simon came n helped me to push in. and i locked him inside! awhile later. i was still at cashier area. someone called to look for manager on duty. so i open the door to pass the phone to him. and he quickly came out & holdin his phone! it was he himself who called outlet la! argh. but was so funny la. and overheard his convo with sir asra. he said "lorry" as "trolley". -.-

OMG. im msn with him now!!!
Roster next week.
Mon - 6-11pm
Wed- 6-11pm
Sat- 12-10pm
Sun- 9-6pm!!

Seriously, i dont like to work morning shift. Got to wake up early! thanks to sir simon la. for changin my shift. and only 1 hr OT! so sian. AND! i got to open fountain! Sir simon say 有他在.. ya la. but. sighh. and he say he will put me fountain on his shift. i kept sayin dont wan!!!!! sian sian sian.

Last week of sch le. Happy and sad at the same time.
im sleepy now. so stop here. Yup! shall not think too much le.

Yoyo. Class on fri was pretty fun. Despite was kinda pissed off at first. Ended up group with Enz, Geannie and Khai. Quite ok la. Went for YEIG briefin at 1230. Wasted my time la! That briefing was for the student leaders only. While im e student helpers only. Siann. Dabao back to class and eat. And edited some of the slides that e rest had done. Today's problem pretty interesting. and presentation was quite different. We cant get to choose which slides to present. Got to draw lots! Quite fun la. And shooting other teams.. And lijia mummy was so good la. She answered ah beng's question correctly and she can get an A!!! so envy her la. And ah beng asked her to give RJ question. And whole class was like blamin her for givin a difficult one. But i find it ok la. At least i can write longer RJs than previous weeks.

After class went to work. Was abit late. Stn 3 with xin ying and jian kai the new staff. Not so busy but sales pretty good. yay.

Today.
Did host 1. thanks to Sir Asra. -.- But was fun fun fun!! Giving out balloons to kids are so fun la. Seeing kids running to you to get balloons. Seeing the smile of them, hearing "thank you" from them and e innocent face.. is like OMG so cute la. And Sir Asra asked me to be in charge of dont know what thing. Went second break. Then stn 3 with xin ying, yan and siti. Nothing much lo. Closing pretty ok la. Den stayed at outlet with Sir simon n keryn to eat n chat, while e rest went off le.

busy busy. but yay! next week last week of sch le. Holidays after tat! And! i gotten Bs for Cognitive and COMPUTING!!! really suprising lo.

yup g2g!

So super pissed off in sch just now. simply no mood now. im sure gonna get a sucky grade today. confirm a C at least. pissed off la!!!!!

and. im confirm not going for class chalet this coming june. abit sad but............... like what i said in my previous post. i rather donate to sichuan's earthquake victims. and yes i did. =).

listenin to my blog's song by v6. v cute song. v6 rox!!

im such a loner today. went to sch alone. neither i join my classmates for breakout. i just asked my classmate to dabao for me. dont know why. err. i just feel im so anti social today.

i dont feel like going for class chalet also. only feel like donate e $ for sichuan's earthquake victims. i rather do that. seriously speaking.

enough of being sad. i gotten an A for my culture! of course not just me la. but also happy lei. UT today was pretty ok. hope i can do well.

rather busy with sch stuff recently. helpin out with SUI! voting booth. n also student ambassadors for neoteric marketers..

yup. and i got so much things to buy! from head to toe. i know i should save up. and I MUST. anyway pay day coming quite soon. so yup. ^^

yesterday after sch i felt im a small kid again. went sch library to play monopoly with lijia mummy, giselle, enz, cyrus and zineng. we were sittin down there arugin like small kids,playin w fake notes. take n give $. we dint care wat others might think of us n we just played. hahaha. until 8pm den we left sch. so damn tired. n i overslept in train. alighted at tanjong pagar den took train back to tiong. -.-

sometimes, i do need someone to b there for me. a shoulder for me to lean on, a hand for me to hold, someone tat i can share everythin with. sighh.

Happy birthday Sir Simon!!!! 又老一岁了!!

Work yesterday was fun fun fun!! Did host 1 in afternoon. Despite host 2 was HF, host 1 was still fun! Like doing host 1 more and more. *Strictly for weekends and PH ONLY* den went second break. den off to stn 1 and 2. -.- was damn hell busy la. but sales was good! 15-16k i think. and sabo-ed sir simon!! and i gotten myself drenched also. -.- but was fun la. and sir asra and sir simon were "想当年" again and sir simon suddenly say "What the hell man". keryn n i were arm chio to each other already.. after he said tat more than 3 times already, we started laughin like mad!! hahaahah.

so work for e past 3 days of 12-11pm were fun, yet tiring.

Woke up today right on the spot. felt the urge not to go sch at first, feelin so sleepy and tired.plus my mum was there psycho me. msg lijia mummy, peggy and giselle whether they wan pon sch or not. but they all goin. =(. so headed to sch. luckily i reached class right on the spot. mpdule today much much better. on mathematical today. rather than computing. and my fav probability. yay. but quite confusing also. and i fell asleep durin 3rd meeting. too tired.

UT tmr for culture. have not gotten the grade for last wk! so slow!! sigh.

Super duper tired now.

Fri after sch went to work. Was late. Forgot to bring uniform and Sir Simon gave me somehow new one. Slacked a little inside. Mdm Glenn showed me a pic of her and we were there laughing! And Sir Simon was trying his best to steal the pic. hahaha. Work was pretty ok la.

Sat. Morning stn 3 with xin ying and sandy jie. Sir Simon put me as Sup of the day (SOD) not soup of the day ah. -.- also no difference la. got to work still. Went first break and then..... Host 1. Think this is my first time did host 1 on a weekend, when there's confirm of LONG QUEUE. And guess what? Host 2 was HF. -.- so sian la. And dunno if she was deaf or what. Told her "2 follow by 4" and she can hear it as "4 follow by 2". More than once u know. sighh. But at least, Host 1 quite shiok. After hearing it from Sukri. i do agree with that. But closing was like hell. -.-

Today. Stn 3 again with Hui qi and kwangli. And kwangli was early by 1 min! dont look down on it wor. Hui qi and i were telling each other. working nowadays are gettin more n more boring.... sighhh. Went second break with Sir Asra, joan and xiu xiu. not much food left! was quite pissed off with it after workin like hell earlier on, wanted to go out and eat or order. but everywhere in vivo seems so crowded. thanks chef alvin, 4 of us get to eat fish n chips and fried chic! worth $17-18 each. muhahaha. and as usual, took ice cream myself. FCM with marsh top! im totally addicted to it. so damn nice!! after tat went back to work. stn 3 again with xiu xiu and fiona. temper wasnt tat good. kena complain by table 54 regardin svc. tat's nothin much that 1 person can do. and so much things to do. cant rely on 1 person at all! and suddenly, i felt e pressure. e pressure i gave myself. i would always wan to provide e best svc as i can, be e most alert as i can. hv been doin my part by informin host 1 and 2 which tables are available etc.. sighh. i still love workin anyway. closin was like hell too. luckily sir asra asked me to go bank with him. managed to slack abit. oh ya and cristal dropped by! and supper pretty good. had baked rice (after so long) and double berry!! left outlet quite early (as HF is ard).

In bank with Sir Asra just now. Was asked by him. Am i available? Sigh. Yes i do.

`saw his missed call just now while workin. Called me for what? after sooooo long.
`and i thought of LWY on my way to work suddenly.

Workin tmr 12-10pm. will stay till 11 to have a SABO SESSION!! can i not be Host 1 for mornin shift???

My classmates so damn shuang la. they going east coast park tomorrow. jealous. =( and i need a longgggg sleep.

Holidays are comin very soon! And class chalet! But guess i got to work for most of my holiDAYS.

愿灾区人民顺利度过难关！希望灾区的小朋友们顺利脱险！-Quoted from Jay Chou. ^^

`Do make a difference to make this world better! ^^

Sigh. Suay today. Woke up late!!! At 815am only when i jumped out. Suppose to have computing UT!!! Quickly prepare myself and rush to sch. Decided to miss the UT and go for Enterprise only. Reached sch at 920am and i saw Angelynn! is like finally see her since the sch starts. ^^. Bought snacks at E1 and walked up to class. Was told not to go in the class as UT is still going on. Sigh. And Ah Beng still marked me late. =( But topic for the day was interesting!! On financial planning. Finally touch on POA! Group with Zineng, Cyrus and Faizal. e only girl. -.-. did the income statement n balance sheet. but sighh. I forgot the owner's equity! Had my break in class doing ppt. Thanks to Kerenia to buy food for me. And had fun time shooting other teams as well. Durint meeting 3 Mdm Glenn msg me to ask me to go work. Urgent. Wanted to go help but i wore shorts and got to meet my dad and sis for dinner. So rejected her. So sorry man.

Still in class now. They are playin CS. so noisy la! going to meet dad and sis for dinner! ^^

sch today was fun fun fun! Met geannie at je to take train tgt. and met mummy, giselle, enz and his fren and faizal at interchange. Bus was too cramp and we left Enz and his fren there. hahaha.

Had culture today. Thanks to mummy's suggestion to faci, we had a debating session instead!! PPT is always so boring. Motion : Do we shape the buildings or the building shape us? My team took We shape the buildings. Was the 5th speaker. opponent was wei xian. Enz was like saying mother and son. -.- anyway, hope i did well. Can i get a A? yup. and hang ard in class for awhile and im learning to use photo shop! den went home with cyrus and peggy. while e rest went to library to study. met mum at tiong to hv dinner at kopitiam. bought stuff from ntuc and went home. tired....

Enterprise tomorrow! and computing UT tmr. siannnnn.

OMG! Love him man..

Yo. Feeling quite tired nowadays. Ya i shall turn in early today!

Morning was so dumb la. Was rather late to meet Geannie at je le. stood at the road side to wait for either 145 opposite or 195 to come. suddenly 145 came and i wanted to chase for the bus, but it left before i could cross the road.. Shortly after, 195 opposite came. i was like ?! so cross the road again to chase the bus. luckily i managed to. but geannie left w/o me if i did not reach by 805. only reach tiong at 755. so i msg her i couldnt make it. sigh. so took train alone. saw giselle, mummy and faizal at woodlands so we walked to sch tgt.

UT was difficult! of course de la. science ma. changed group today. Yay! With Giselle, Zineng and Kai. Den mummy joined my group! But only 3 of us were heavily involved with the discussion. sigh. But presentation was pretty ok. When class ended watch Kuitian2 for awhile. Go morita so shuai! So cool! So cute! So funny! wa love him man!!! Den went home after tat. Some of them went to play pool i think. Tired and broke, so shall not join them. did not ate waffle ice cream also as i ate during 2nd breakout!

So many things i wanna do. So many people i wanna meet. But i dont have e time. Time flies off just like that. Sch work sch work.

I wanna go out more with E36R people.

I wanna meet up with my family more.

I wanna meet my sec sch frens.

I wanna meet up with Earle's people.

I wanna go for a crazy shopping.

I wanna hold the mic.

I wanna go overseas during holidays.

I wanna get citibank credit card asap.

I wanna see Go Morita in person.

I wanna move house.

I wanna have lots of money.

I wanna dye hair again.

I wanna Mr R.

I wanna be happy!

Errrrr.

Workin on sat and sun was rather routine. HF planned me exactly the same! Morning stn 2 and nite cashier. Gd thing was that i need not do closing! Sun was Quennie's last day. So damn sad. 1 of my fav friend in Earle's. And she will be transferring to holland v. Sigh. oh well work on sun was fun! Mothers' day. was already busy when we came out from briefin. And sales was $20,099.26! funny number rite.. had quite nice feast after work. got fried rice, cc sun, earthquake, agar agar.yummy! had fun time tokin with sir simon, sir asra, joan, agnes and quennie. all e dirty jokes. hahahaha.
cam whorin with quennie on our way home.

Today is so sux! Late for class for the most 10mins. Giselle, geannie and i were really rushing to class lo. And Kent still marked us late. -.- seriously i rather dont go sch! Today's module is really sux too. Think i will get the worst grade today. Anyway went for journalism talk during breakout with Giselle, peggy and mummy. quite interesting. After sch had SUI! training. But i missed the RSH open house briefing. So i won't be helping out for open house. since the only available slot is only sat 2-6pm. i rather go work lo. Den train-ed with mummy, giselle and geannie. And met my mum at city hall. Treated her HK cafe for Mothers' Day. Yummy!

``Where's Mr R.? sigh. Yay. Sch holidays coming soon! UT tmr for science. -.- But waffle day tmr!

Before everything, mummy and i! sigh. she only acknowledge me on mothers' day. =(

Here comes lots of photos again!

Life in class on fri.

Mini make-up session.
Cam whoring after class

RP-ians.

Lester and i.
The "STAR"! But 三缺一 haha..
Lester, me, Enz and w/o Giselle.

Our beautiful legs.

Strolling along orchard.

E36R!

Mummy and i. The price tags so extra la~
Geannie: Wuuuuuu~

Me: WTH is tis?

That's all for fri! Somemore pics from peggy!

hahahahaha. im now busy laughing at sir simon's wedding photo that he just sent me. so funny la!!

anyway. back home from a long and tiring day. yet fun! had science module today. somehow regret comin la! was really stress on e topic and i dont really c anyone doin seriously. so i was rather emo during 2nd breakout. presentation was really sucks too. sighh.

went out after sch with giselle, lijia, peggy, geannie, angela, yuki, lester, enz, cyrus. had dinner at CWP ljs and went orchard. giselle dropped her frendship band! so sad! oh ya n morning rushin to class, geannie dropped her star also. aiyo! took lotss of pics durin e outing. shall upload when peggy and geannie send me.. n lijia is officially my mummy lijia!

workin tmr 12-11 and sun 12-10! omg.

Time really flies fast this week.

Just one blink and it's going to be fri tmr!

Tired and sleepy.

Have been going to Causeway point [CWP] this week.

Mon's computing module was much much better than previous weeks. I managed to ans Kent's question correctly! *I think* After sch went CWP with half of e class. Walked ard and cam-whored.

Had UT on Tues. First time doin so abit blur. Today's problem was super tough! Really stress. And err.. Not really happy.. Something funny. Enz told me on mon that someone called him up to ask him to go for SUI's fashion show audition. At first he was like telling me "Not i brb ah......". Den i recalled. I was the one whom nominated for him! So i kept asking him to go. After sch went support Enz for e audition. We just went outside the room to take a look and we went off. sighh. Went CWP with him, Giselle and Lijia for gelare's waffle, while some of them went kbox.. After that went Lijia's mum's salon for haircut! nice and cheap! met xie shun after that at bugis to do some shoppin. to him only.wahaha.

Wed's culture module was good! interesting! After sch went for Moses Lim talk after sch with Lijia, Peggy, Cuiting, Zineng, Loon, Geannie, Angela and Yuki. Too tired and i fell asleep. Not that boring but was due to tiredness..

Had UT today for enterprise skills. Although answered all questions but did not typed all my points. So many questions but only 30 mins! Today's problem is interesting! Lots of jokes during presention. And went CWP again with Geannie, Giselle, Lijia, Weixian and Faisal!
Bought shirts at giordano with Geannie and Weixian. We shall wear tmr!
After the guys left, we girls walked ard CWP and we bought similar rings and friendship bands! So cool! and Giselle created a "STAR!" cheer. -.-

Shall go out with e36r to cine tmr!! Bringing them to go for ear piercing! thinking whether i should go for it again.

I simply love my class! they simply rocks.. Love the time when some of us going down together during 2nd breakout for lunch.. So fun..

ok g2g!

So fun! Here are pics from Peggy during Zineng's birthday celebration in class.

Me and Peggy..
Zineng at e back, Geannie, Peggy, Shilla and myself.

Enz, Weiloon, Geannie, me and Peggy

Cuiting, Peggy, Gisella, Enz, me, Zineng, Geannie, Cyrus, Lijia
Whole class of E36R!

All birthday celebration should be as fun as this!
Last fri was Basic science module. Me, Peggy, Loon, Lijia and Giselle decided to pon sch and went cine for movie Iron Man!Sorry was super late. Nice movie! But it was pretty long and i almost fell asleep at times. Stroll around at orchard and waited for some of them to finish sch n met us! Walked to ps to find Enz, Angela~, Geannie, Weixian the Pinchy, Zineng and Fasizal. Went paradiz centre for pool and arcade. Strolled back to ps to hv dinner. Went kopitiam instead of pizza hut. yup and random photos taken.

Let me introduce my classmates...

From left: Lijia, Geannie, Enz, me, Zineng, Faizal, pinchy, peggy and angela~

These 2 pics so lame la. Was chatting with Enz along e way from ps to paradiz ONLY and dunno who took it and keep sayin we got 1 leg. -.-"

Really had a fun time with E36R all these while! A butch of fun ppl. And today was Computing and mathematical methods. Had better understanding of it. Quite scary when Kent asked me questions.. and whole class wore black!! so steady sia. except for Enz whom wasnt aware.. omg.. yup. and went causeway point after sch with peggy, geannie, giselle, lijia, zineng, loon, pinchy, faizal. and on e way chatted with Enz since he did not join us. Fun! quite lame also..

UT tmr! got to wake up early. meaning i got to sleep early!

Happy Labour Day everyone. ^^

Long day for me today. Worked 12-11pm.

Sir Asra put me Host 1 initially. Due to public holiday, host 1 must be supervisors. Luckily Qiu Yue jie wanna change with me. If not i will die outside. And Jack jack will call me goalkeeper again. So i became Host 2 instead. For the first time! Luckily Sir Asra let me try doing Host 2. At first i tot it's cool to be Host 2 and relaxing. But im wrong!!! Have to run here and there. Tiring! Was so super busy. And i was kinda stress. When Qiu Yue jie went for first break, i took over and did Host 1. Long queue! Almost to OP le. It was my first time doing Host 1 with long queue. So hmmm. Not bad. More fun comparing doing Host 1 on off peak hours. But anyway, hope i did well today.

Went second break with Keryn to makan at food republic. I miss those time when i will always go makan there with Keryn, Xin Ying and Chenghao before work/break time. Sighhh.

Stn 1 at night. Not so busy comparing to afternoon. But table 1,2 and 3 are always occupied by big groups. And nothing much la.

Going to watch Iron Man tmr at cine with Giselle, Lijia, Peggy and Loon! Yay!