ever since last sat.
i have been feeling huge sense of lost.
reason being. i felt sooo tired. ever since i started my Yr 2 journey w RP.
i know. it's my choice. to becoming a Full time student n part time staff @ StarHub. but. it is super tiring. i do not know. is it still worth it. will ppl understand my situation n stand in my shoe to think.
it is REALLY not easy to cope studies n work at e same time. BUT. i need e diploma. i need e salary as well.
n now e issue is. i dont even know how long i can stay at SH. i hv always tis feeling tat my bosses cant wait to get rid of us. since last yr when they transferred half of my batch to TM.
i do wish. i can either be a full time student now n enjoy my student life as much as i wan. Or. Quit sch n becoming a full time staff at SH.
but i cant do neither way. i seriously do not know. how much ppl will appreciate my commitment etc.
on e other hand. feel so sick of relationship as well. n i do now wish to lie to my new classmates. they r good ppl.
in conclusion. tis is just an emo post. N i will not breakdown no matter wat!
Monday, April 27, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
I wanna own this!!!
today on my way home from work, after separating with Samuel, saw my GESS senior at raffles place. He is currently working at StarHub as well. After chatting with him until i alighted, i only then realised.. i dint even know his name =/
im sort of looking forward to tomorrow's lesson!
time.. to really give up.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
yesterday.
back to sch! class @ E26L. seems like im joining year 3 SIT's class today. =(
team mates not too bad. faci not too bad, as he likes my case study!
breakfast with Joyce and her friend.
after sch, off to Haw Par to collect my charger from Thomas. and went chinatown to buy shampoo and toothbrush.. its really damn cheap!
at night. celebrated Yuuki's birthday! both Yuuki and Chibi were really damnnn cute when they wear the birthday hat!
This is the birthday that my sis bought!
With dog bone design somemore!
Was really laughing my stomach off when trying to take pictures of them!
the happy us :D
today.
class @ E66N. my class is really damn far can.
faci is damn cool. allows 5 mins grace. thanks to Nigel huh..
at least im in the same class as Nigel *again
i got him to join my group and im not that boring in class!
and he wore Hot Blood shirt.. reminded me of YL..
breakfast with Joyce n her friend again. and i met up with Xue jun, Nabilah and Haziriah for lunch!
after sch, Lijia dar was so so nice to accompany me to go town to search for birthday present!
wanted to head to Ben & Jerry's free cone day, but ended up.... =(
however, a woman suddenly approached me at the cathay and i had free eyebrow styling!
photos for today.
Central cafe @ TAKA reminded me of the first outing with him on 14 jan. =(
Sunday, April 19, 2009
just a short post before i end my day.
after today. i dunno whether..
i will be bothering about him
i will still be reminded when.....
e first n last movie stubs tat we watched tgt
first meal @ HK cafe
e passport stamp on 21 jan09
that table where we sat at Commonwealth's LJS
he waited for me @ commonwealth mrt
he acc me to buy Piene cardin wallet
bought shoe @ fareast
ate Ben & Jerry's @ the cathay
ate my first pepper lunch @ suntec
walked from queenstown mrt to my home
i dunno.. whether u will reminded of me when..
u using ur phone daily
u brush ur teeth daily
u wear Black chamber tshirt
u use ur timebell
n the rest of above...
not trying to sound so serious la. just that, will schooling keeps me more occupied n refrain myself thinking so much? i hope i am. i hope i can too.
and today, Xiao di pang seh me for dinner! =((
but was promised a big swensen feast on fri! :D
make sure!
YAWN.
Last day of 3 mths holiday today. =((
Nevertheless, sort of looking forward to sch life.
i guess i am nervous?
haha. think i am behaving like a Pri 1/Sec 1 sch kids.
i hope..
i can do well better in sch and work
better GPA.. lesser disputes.. make more n better friends..
happier life..
i dunno..
whether i had let go..
no point keep saying i love you when i get nothing back..
i dunno..
how to manage my life better
sense of lost out of sudden.
no worries. im not being emo.
i am happy today as Celia is back! :D
and we had a very nice n full meal together with Samuel and Tan Chin Ping.
24 hours from now, i will be sitting in E26L classroom studying sales management!
and i wanna eat breakfast with Joyce and Xue jun during first break!
and i wanna buy my favourite chocolate waffle at W4 canteen!!
cant wait to go back to sch............. to eat my fav food!
and it's Yuuki's birthday tomorrow! i love celebrations.
photos of Yuuki to be up soon!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Im damn bloody happy today! *very very wide smile!
When i opened up, this appeared! So nicely wrapped up!
This is the USB stick!
NAH!
To "proof" that this is really an limited edition (:
And happy me!
Shoo-ed listening to her album! More other pictures to come!
:D
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.
*rather accurate.
resources - http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Thursday, April 9, 2009
today.
back to work to replace my off day for tomorrow. initally morning shift. but ended up full shift. Celia had to fight $10 allowance for me.
went for lunch with Winnie and it's been a long time since i had lunch at MS. but i prefer dry chicken noodle. their ice lemon tea damn rocks.
anyway, contacted my ex's dad for DVNP. while on the phone with him, had been trying to recall his looks as well as my ex's mum. but i can only managed to recall Xie Shun's dad's look as i just saw him 2 wks ago? haiz.
work today is pretty happy, despite Wayne fell down at home in the toliet. omg. rest well ba. dunno whether i should c u on sat? haha.
life is getting kind of weird nowadays. and i dunno why? people that i used to close with, no longer now? people that im not to close with, are close now? people that i used to close with, no longer closed before but getting closer now?
haiz. i do have a simple wish now. to be close with everyone w/o any back stabbing. i dunno how to begin with it. but i am trying my best.
have been thinking. am i being compromising in relationship? is that good or bad?
put aside all the thinkings.. i just hope i will be happy.
smile!
anyway, since its my off day tomorrow, will be going tampines mall! i shall shop like mad!
happily chatting via msn now! (:
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
today.
specially coming online now just to blog on something.. My ex bf's parent turned out to be my cust!
Actually i received the leads from Cindy on sunday already. just that i didn't realised it. Was thinking whether i should call or not as my colleagues had already called previously. I decided to call still as i want to get the sales and wanting to cfm whether he is the one.
I already saw e email add, was my ex's sis. So i'd already 80% cfm and esp, their surname is Hon. And i called. Spoke to cust, my ex's bf. Obviously mandarin speakin. He wasnt sure whether did his daughter sent in the form. and he asked me to speak to......... his son. -.-
He passed the phone and then.. a young guy took over the call. seriously im not v sure whether he is my ex or his younger bro. Wanting to ask him straight, are you Wai Hong or Choon Hong? hahaha. obviously i didnt. And then, cust asked me to call his daughter directly..
Called twice but no ans. So i sent online sms for her to call in. And she did. and then, i private sms her n asked her whether she still rmb me.
Isnt life really full of surprising? I did not get in touch with that family for 6++ years and now, they are in turn my cust?
And then, on my way home from work, recalled the past. That family really treated me v well. My ex bf's dad drove me and my ex to tiong bahru market to have chicken rice. His mum will come and talk to me in my ex's bedroom. His sis will lend me her nail polish (and she doesnt even lend to her friends), his younger bro will cheer me up via msn, telling me not to be sad when i quarrelled with him, and after i broke up w him. And of course, my ex. He used to treat me v well. He had alot of patience when going after me, even though at that time i had someone else in mind. But ended up, we broke up because of insignificant issue. and i took 2-3 yrs to let go. I really treated them like my very own family during that time. I can still remember, i liked Ayumi since "I am.." album and that's when i got to know him in Gan Eng Seng, yr 2002..
Nevertheless. those happended 7 yrs ago and we are having our own life. You guys had shifted house and my ex had gotten new gf. I do miss those times.. haizzzz.
I shall wait till Serene email me the form and i will contact them again.........
alrite. i shall better have to turn in early since im not feellin too well now and i am work full shift tomorrow! and since he is not online as well.
YAWN!
Monday, April 6, 2009
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Pls refer to Aarti's blog post on 2 apr regardin to class outing on 1st apr!
haiz. miss u guys already!
today is a freaking boring day. had my lunch at ps with Gab for indonesian food. that makes me happy. (: and then 2nd break we went to buy Eskimo bubble tea. this makes me happy too. But now, freaking bored!!!
haizzzzz
Thursday, April 2, 2009
today.
dunno y. is a freaking boring day. at least i closed 5 sales.
i think i know why today is freaking bored. both my Sup and TL will be away until 6 apr. =((
also. Ayumi's album is still not out yet. =((
im starting to understand myself more and better.
i think i need a change. in all ways. which includes my living habits, my way of communicating with people.. etc etc. as im quite sick of handling unnecessery "disputes" with people around me. if i did a change earlier, will things become different now? anyway, i think i need to love my dog more too. (:
as for now, i am only looking forward to mon, which is my very next off day and i wanna watch movie!
somehow, i find myself rather blessed too. noticed that it seems that i am the first dv temp so far from what i know that was allowed to come back OT half day? im thankful for that too.
i hope..........
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
today.
back to work OT from 920am to 150pm. kinda funny. msg Wayne @ 1143pm yesterday n requested OT from him. no reply from him so i slept. woke up because of my phone ringing tone. Replied msg from him say "?????? So?" @ 739am. So i replied "it's ok den" and went back to slp. And then, he called me @ 817am and approved my OT. 100% woke up immediately and rush to bathe. think my mum got a shock. flied down @ 920am. -.-
luckily it wasnt april fool joke from him.
after OT went orchard for "W45H class outing". me, Xue Jun, Weiliang, Jie Min, Joyce, Noriz, Indah, Nabilah and Aarti.
had Seoul garden for lunch. i had lotssss of prawns. wahahaha. shiokness. and then we shopped around far east, wheelock place and taka/wisma. lotss of jokes happened. look out for Aarti's blog!
i am super happy today cause i got to see my dearest classmates and i bought lots of things!
*yawn. i shall turn in now as im so gonna wake up early tomorrow for mornin jog!
PM shift tmr!
*e feelin is never good when you are havin cold war with your friend. =(
