蔡依林-离人节
在我们的故事写下结局前
请你聆听最后尾奏的音乐
幸福渐远心跳渐弱
回音在休止符后停留了好久
当每一个当下变成过去后
自由也许是离人们的折磨
在狂欢时寂寞 从绝望里复活
才明白爱会随时间逐渐成熟
从那一天原谅你的瞬间
我不过情人节 我和未来不再相恋
爱断了线 于是我每天都过想你的离人节
不再见面 不代表我不再对你想念
你是曾经的永远 会永远在我身边
当每一个当下变成过去后
自由也许是离人们的折磨
在狂欢时寂寞从绝望里复活
才明白爱会随时间逐渐成熟
从那一天 放开你的瞬间
我不过情人节 除非未来还会出现
爱断了线 我如何能不再过想你的离人节
希望这是最后一次 向最爱说再见
也希望下个永远会永远在我身边
This song is so totally represents my thoughts now.
I hope.. 1 day he will understand..
Take good good care Fauziah. Really nice knowing u for e past 7 mths. Time flies huh? U r someone that is always so damnnn cheerful n outgoing. Thanks for hearing all my nonsenses all these while too. I will miss u callin me fat fat! Anyway i think the pics that we took today damn rocks la! (:today.
will be a thank-you time.
all these while.. a big thank-you to..
Eugene, Ylva, Celia, Wayne, Sok Feng, Eric, Pei Shan, Wei liang, Xue Jun, Joyce, Shi Qi, Xie Shun, Jun Hong, Christopher, Judy, Jie Min, Jia Hui, Duncan, Cindy, Fauziah, Elmi.. (names are mentioned randomly)
Eugene - knows everything since day 1. he is someone that listened almost ALL of my complains and vent my anger on. Really (and no choice) listening to me repeating all over n over again.
Celia - for encouragin me to move on
Sok Feng - im aware that i am not e only one and tellin me not to be sad
Jun Hong - for telling me "no point dragging" and thus allowed me to have the courage to ask
Wei liang - another one that knows everything since day 1. thanks for listenin to me as well.
Fauziah - thanks for askin me "do you love him"
Elmi - thanks for tellin me not to give up initally.
to e rest as well..
thanks for listening / asking / hearin me mentioning abt things between me and that person. all e complains and whining that i'd expressed. thanks for all e advices as well. anyway, things dint turned out the way that i wanted to be. no choice. so do stop asking me with regards to this issue anymore. and i hope Wayne will be the last person to ask me today. like what i mentioned to him, already "case closed".
i have been asking myself alot of questions. all regarding...
"Since he XXX, he should be liking me'' OR at least, before..
aiya. no point pondering. wat's past is past. let it be ba. at least i got to know Fang Da Tong's great music. (:
tomorrow will be a better day!
Once again. I'm blogging on phone.
will be uploading some pics on my next post. Wahaha.
Anyway. Everything has ended. I shall laugh at my stupidNess, n too much of self-assumin. 我承认，我因为不能得到他而哭了。仔细想想, 太笨了。e only thing i hope is tat we can still remain gd frens. N of cos, i will smile n move on. I will not be a weakling like wat others n myself think. So. 14 Jan to 21 mar, everything is just a dream. A nice dream afterall. I hv learn n grown alot. Perhaps, I'm not fit to involve in a relationship. Tis is e 3rd time I'd involved in a office-relationship. N none of them succeed. I'm rather sick of it already.
yesterday
went The Pasta Shop for lunch w mum. *my mum is pro at choosing place ya? N costed me $40 plus for tis meal. -.- anyway happy belated birthday!
after meal. Shopped ard tiong n went back. Met Xie shun at nite over at ps. Went to watch movie. Hotel for Dogs. A very heart-warming n we had a gd laugh. (: after movie he acc me to office to take my charger. Halim was still in office so had a short chat w him. Xie shun cabbed back to camp n i trained home. Bought Mr bean for supper as well.
today. 2nd off day
had a v gd long slp, stayed at home watched tv n.... I mopped e floor! It's been a long long time since i last did house chore. Think it was my last closing at earle swensen? Haha. N i went to tiong to hv a stroll. Took 6 donuts for free. Tks to xue jun for e voucher!
another workin day tmr. Cant wait for my next off day and sch to start!
today.
Longest talktime so far. 1 hr 21mins 3 sec. -.- Broke my previous record of 56 mins. Nevertheless, caller was rather nice la. Just that she asked alot of questions. Ranging from mol promos, to hub club membership, to how old i am, which sch im studying, and her son's education journey. -.- hopefully she will send me a compliment letter (:
And i got a dispute case. very similar to what i gotten previously. same incident, same salesperson. Should advise you guys from signing up @ PS shop, a particular salesperson. haha!
Another dispute case is customer threathen to make police report and to sue us. dotsssss.
I am in a midst of making a decision. I hope i am bold enough. All e best to me.
I am sad too as i am not given approval by Wayne to work OT tomorrow. =((
Nevertheless, happy birthday to Mrs Lee / Mdm Wong!
msg to u (despite u will never know how to read my blog =p) - i hope i can be a better daughter, less rude to you, more obedient to you, coming home more often, giving you more financial support. im sorry that i am working full today and not able to spend the day with you.
I shall make my way home today and spend time with you for the last 3 hrs.
yesterday.
another working day. was exceptionally boring and i dunno why.
i left my book in office and my friends seems not able to find it. SH peeps, pls handle with care if u get to see it n keep it for me alrite? The book is Curious Case of Benjamin Button. i just bought it on tues only lei.. =((
however, went out with Ylva and Cindy after work. we had a very nice meal at Heeren's Waraku Japanese Restaurant. And we gotten $41 vouchers for next visit. Wahahahaha. and then we shopped around heeren and far east.
I realised, shopping at far east seems to be a torture for me. =( my friends know why. and when i got home, i had a big cry again. Not because i am sad. I just don't understand why. it's the past that keeps holding me back. i have alot of words to say to him.
STOP BEING EMO!
anyway, i bought myself a very nice shade at far east as well. (:
today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YLVA NG XIU YUAN!
enjoy ur day!
gonna bath now or else i will be late meeting Jia Hui!
today. is a pleasant day.
saw Willie at mrt and we went to work together. I think im pretty hardworking today. Haa. Had mos burger for lunch with Ylva, Cindy, Thomas and Willie. After work went town with Ylva. I bought 4 books at Borders! I am a happy girl. (:
This is Ylva and me. I think we look great. (:
And when i get home, i made brownie cake! Tahdah! This is my very first attempt and i think it went well. Room for improvement!
And this is my dog's sexy butt. (:
I think im pretty pack this week.
BYE!
today. my off day!
had my day out with Wei liang. as usual. went alot of places!
1stly, had lunch at LJS. ate seafood combo! (: after that headed to Suntec IT show! wanted to sign up MOL w free LCD tv but after thinking through and suggestions from Andrew n my sis, decided not to. Dint get to see Xue Jun although she is working there. =( nevertheless, there is also sales for Body shop. bought some stuff from there.
after that, went back to ms to open an UOB a/c for myself. applying for NOW card!
and then, went to cine for movie! Coming Soon. It's damn scary but yet a very nice show. But ending isnt that good. had meal at kobayashi as well.
then, walk to ps to buy biscuit at marks and spencer. n home sweet home.
i feel like buyin so many things and do so many things~
-a running shoe + sports wear
-a cd player with speaker
- LCD TV for my room!
- taking up driving lesson
- start makin my caramel pudding~
etc etc.
yawn. workin tmr!
was blog hopping just now.
to my very very surprise. saw Wei liang's post on 9 mar. He wrote song based on my relationship with YL... i cried immediately. Thanks alot Wei Liang. Really appreciate that. no deny that i still like him. But thanks to me, u have more inspiration ya?
That's right, what's past is past. i will use my love more wisely and spread it for my friends. But, it's this song lyrics that keeps me going. 至少我们中还有人能快乐 这样就已经够了. really make sense right.
the usual elaine will be back.
soon. (:
today.
supposed to be my off day. but im back to office for OT. gd anyway since i can claim double pay. woohoo. i am pretty happy today as Ayumi's Asia Tour 2008 has finally launched! i shall chiong home to watch tonight.
listening 三人游 on my phone now. I love this song more and more.
It's really time to start living w/o u. Perhaps, time will really lead the way.
至少我们中还有人能快乐 这样就已足够了
source - http://www.yesasia.com/global/orange-moon-valentines-limited-edition-cd-dvd-taiwan-version/1014366972-0-0-0-en/info.html
I bought this yesterday!
Today.
No idea why i am real emo today. Even my sup Wayne realised it. But pls don't be mistaken that i emo because of someone else ok! It's still E71.. =( Work today is real boring. and i had to go home alone as xiao di is off today. sigh.
I told myself to be strong. I realised that i can't. How i wish i can laugh like nobody's business. Something is just pulling myself from doing that. I know. No use being emo. I can't force anything. I can't force Yong Liang to be together with me. The only solution.. is to move on. N one can teach me how to do it. I can only rely on myself. How i wish i can say to him.. Love me pls. But i can't do that right? Like what i mentioned previously, i must be mature..
Have been thinking, how will my life be if i have a totally different life? How my life will be if i.. not studying in RP? not working in StarHub? did not know him at all? Will i be happier? Will i be able to get a better guy?
How i wish i can just settle down now. =(
Like what he said. I think im real mad le.. HOW?!
On a happy note.. *forcing myself not to be emo
im thinking of learning how to... cook! wahaha. let's start from.. SOUP? think i can make it ba. haha!
*off sourcing for soup recipe!
today.
spent my day pretty well.
Happy birthday to Willie Koh Guo Jin! (:
green because green tea is ur favourite. haha!
Find your Huang Rong soon ok!
reached office slighly earlier than usual.
damn lots of calls. =/
break-ed with Andrew and Willie.
Treated birthday boy a meal.
no idea why i treated Andrew drinks also.
sorry i dont earn alot ok..
YL came over and tok to me regarding work.
was damn nervous at that point of time. im mad?
but he stopped replying my mail when i came back from break. :((
watever la.
2nd break-ed w Willie only. Andrew ps us. :(
bought green milk tea from eskimo. damn nice!
saw YL, JH and Mike on our way back to office. expected. YL dao me.
Celia bought me birthday present! :D
today is Max's last day of work. :( lesser n lesser DV temp left le. seriously i dont know how i long i will/can stay in SH inbound sales. I dunno if i love my job or not. But definitely, is the people there that makes me enjoy staying there, and of course the pay!
after work went to pioneer to have supper with xiao di. Took train all the way to joo koon just to take a look. new mrt stations are so damn cool! anyway food at pioneer are nice! expecting to see myself eating supper over there frequently already.
reflection - i do not really know whether is it worth it. to spend my time, my youth, my opportunity for other guys just for him. i dont even know when can i ever get a response. like what i told xiao di. i just need an answer! nothing can ever deny that i love you. i am not expecting anything from you. i just need a response from you. seriously do not what i can/should do. but i know, i mustn't pressure you. i will be happy as long as you are happy. last sat, i hope i played a part in helping u, in any way. unknowingly, you revolve all around my life totally. everything i do, everywhere i go, i will think for you. i bought green tea chocolate, first thing i will think is, must share with you! work, must help you clear onyx! must brainwash cust to take up DV numbers ending with 73! Fang da tong's songs rocks because of you. i think im totally mad. :( but i will be strong, i will be happy. for you. was doing a mass cleanup for my phone inbox. was reading your past smses, do you really meant those words? words including i love you and i miss you? esp sms when you sent on 14 jan 12am plus? :((
what can i do????
