On thurs.
I cried for the very first time because of him.
Today.
Will be my second time, right here in the office.
No idea what to do next for now.
It isn't his fault. The problem lies with me.
I'm just behaving like a kid all the time.
I get jealous easily, keep holding on things/people to me.
I am a selfish person. I do not think for others.
...
I know i sounded damn emo. In fact i am.
I will be fine soon.
Seems that i'm letting my sup down also. =(.
I'm starting to hate myself.
YAWN~
happy reunion dinner everyone.
me? sittin down here in office typing this.
waitin for bo liao people to call in.
and now Willie is standin behind me readin this.
*and he's still readin. haha!
It's really a super borin day, as compared to yesterday..
at least i still have Celia & Fauziah to accompany me.
Call stats today is real little..
At least YL still bothers to msg me.. (:
miss him like mad la!
not too long ago, he asked me again this..
"eh ... u got tell anyone in ur class tat u like me ? "
ARGH! it's super frustrating can?
sigh..
think few days later, he will ask..
''eh ... u got tell ur family members tat u like me ? ''
so on and so on..
today i ate alot too.
breakfast - hotcakes meal
lunch - mos burger meal
tea break - cream puff
how abt later??
yawn. shall ciao n surf net!
*edited 7.27pm.
he has pissed me off again ):
y cant he understand how i feel and think for me before he posed tat question?
*edited 8.42pm
finally i told him how i feel. indeed i feel much better.
nevertheless, i still miss him. still tempted to take UL on wed to go out with him..
but i wanna earn $ like mad for this holiday!
woohoo. i decided to private my blog again.
perhaps. my blog is not suitable for public views.
so which means, only my close friends will know everythin abt me here!
yes ah! this can really prevent those busybody people that doesn't know me well, to know things abt me. (:
which means.. i can openly express myself.. e real self.. =DD
today. super happy. though nothing much really happened.
YL was super nice today. to make up for that incident?
few things
-he accompanied me for lunch though his lunch time had already over. (or mayb he wants to slack more?)
-he still remembered what i mentioned to him earlier today even me myself almost forgot abt this.
-he seems jealous of somethin today!
-dunno why he kept mentioning on e hairband tat i bought in JB??
-and also somethin else tat he mentioned via sms *shy
-he is real super easy to make me smile and laugh (:
unknowingly, he has become part of my life.. really cant imagine my life without him.. =(
even if we will not be together in future, im really happy with what i have now.
because of him, i became more hyper/siao. n perhaps more likeable ^^
his future gf will be so fortunate to have him...
think will not be seein him till wed due to CNY. and argh im not workin on both days! wth. double pay gone..
b4 i real yawn damn loud..
yesterday marks the last day of my year 1 in RP. yes ah!
which means also.. it was the last day with W45H.
i sure miss u guys.. pls organise some outings!! i will definitely make out some time for u guys!
well, sort of lookin forward to my new class.. E6xx??
thurs supper after work was great too. thanks for toleratin my whining/complain. n also ur advices! indeed i felt much much better after that. thanks friend!
alrite. g2g!
err. can i say out loud somethin first b4 i go?
i love LYL!! i miss u too!
Just uploaded pic for yday's trip.
But i decided NOT to blog ANYTHING abt it ANYMORE.
pissed totally. =(
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Xue jun - my gd fren in class and breakfast clique! A girl that is friendly and yet not friendly ya! haha! a good shoppin/ktv buddy! And i miss those times and i believe that they will not stop there ya? Let's chiong to ktv together soon! 
Joyce - Another breakfast clique! It's just another day to go that we will chiong down durin 1st breakout and order economical rice tgt? BUT! We will still meetup when sch reopens yup? You are someone that is really cheerful and daring, and share alot about yourself with me ya?
Wei Liang - Joker/Lamer! Same as me, Jay Chou's fan and we share the same surname LEE! But definitely, Jay is far more better than you! haha! Really nice knowing you and we shares alot about our own BGR ya? Hope you can catch your LWL asap k! Let's go ktv again!!
Nabilah - You are someone really funny! Always so cheerful! Can still remember those times that we took train together to town to work? Think we can talk anythin, everything under the sun? And the way you learn chinese also very funny la! Keep in touch alrite? And we have yet to go shoppin!
Lucien - HI FIVE! (that's his favourite phrase) and thus, we always HI 5 to each other, esp when we are in the same group. A really funny yet noisy guy. Anyway, nice knowing you and indeed, you are so real without caring how others think about you and keep rocking on!
Woam shing - Although i dunno u that well, but i realised some similarity between us.. Laugh real easily and also.. we love old songs! wahahahaha. Also, we love Lin You Jia also! haha! u rocks and also you look good with short hair!
Indah! A quiet and gentle girl but you are real nice! All e best for everything ahead (:
Jevini - Really sad that you transferred out of RP. But at least you are strivin for what you really want yup? Maybe i should do the same thing too. Nevertheless, really nice knowing you and i will definitely remember those times when we went down for break together! Misses to u. (:
Jie Min - You are one of the first few in W45H that i got to know. And i know you are one of my faithful blog reader but you just don't tag rite? haha. I can still remember those times that i always tease about your name? And i often complained to you about someone else right? haha! Really nice knowing you!!
Joyhan - Oops. I just saw you with your ''GF'' yesterday at JB! haha! I finally can understand how you feel when you travelin to and from singapore already! it's real tiring! haha. Jia you for everythin!
Edited 3.53pm
Nevertheless, at least i'm done with Math module! Took class photos just now. Dunno why i got super no mood, not even to smile.. =(. Well, after im done with RJ i should move myself to... WORK.
Happy belated birthday Jay Chou!
You are the best and always the best! You rocks!
Anyway, sch today is pretty sian despite it's Enterprise module. Relief faci is so damn sian. But ended sch at 330pm. So is still shuang! Met Lijia after sch and we went hm tgt. Then i slacked, watch tv, eat, drink and slp. so pig right? haha! and my period is here. -.-''
Also, slight confusion is going here and there. SIGH! wat to do lei. i deserve it ma. =(
MISSSSSS~ cant wait for wed to come. got reason one!
Sigh. Work today is seriously damn boring.. But at least, there are ppl to entertain me.. BUT! 1 of them dunno disappear till where. Till now still dao me! I know u r shoppin like mad now, but at least reply my msg can?? =(
But somethin funny in the email conversation with superior.
"Pay little? $9/hr is a very high rate for office-bound jobs, furthermore you are still schooling (usually job markets will lower the rate for students)
With the recession now, hard to come by any job offers with $9/hr.
Work like hell - this is the corporate world la, every job in any place will have their pros and cons. Its a cruel reality but something we cant avoid, office politics & unreasonable client / boss are the common issues and yet no one has found a solution to this and I doubt anyone is able to do away with this as its not within ones control though...
So since we cannot stop them from happening, we can only minimise it from happening to oneself lo. - becareful and tactful when dealing with people, affirm only when you are sure or when you have gotten the answers from a reliable source and just be truthful lo (no one understands you better then yourself, so if you choose to deceive yourself, no one else can help though)
this is definitely a good exposure for you to get contact with the society at young age now, so next time when you really step into the working stage, you will know how to tackle different situations.
But yes, your contract is going to expire soon... haiz.... will respect your decision!"
somethin true la. Surprised that i can actually learn somethin in an informal email. Cool rite?
As such, i replied superior's mail from what he wrote in red..
''Anyway, u can make a difference for tis!''
Anyway im just joking only ok! im really too bored in office. Too sleepy~!
Anyway, last nite i had a very good supper. A very long time after i treated myself so good.
I had.. 4 pic of McWings, upgrade to curly fries, 1 reg sprite n also 1 red bean pie. I love red bean pie cause it rocks. =)
I was invited to go for a steamboat but i decided not to as.... it's mon tmr.. which means.. LAST Enterprise module for me. For my year 1. For my entire life. So i shall go back home early today and prepare myself for it.
YAWN~
Lastly, happy frenship day 1 wk n 1 day!
Today.
This week's sch attendence really suck. sorry i broke my promise few posts before.
mon - skipped sch. slacked the whole day!
tues - finally attended sch & headed to work!
wed - skipped sch again. & yl's phone is finally here. chey e71 only wat. headed to office n wanted to give him a suprise but ended up. forgot to bring staff pass! n was revealed by celia le. hmph not fun le. and then we went hk cafe and then shop! shuang~
thurs - partial! went partyworld with xue jun n wei liang. fun!! it's cheap, nice tidbits n drinks! woohoo. and thanks to xue jun for singing AI MEI to me hor!
and today again. i shall not never partial but i was late for that very 1 minute. =/and that particular someone just told me last nite that he think of me like mad wor! sorry i just feel like hao-lian here.
i just feel happy and contented with what i have now. it might be even too good to be true. no matter what and how the outcome is, u have already play a part in my life n errr........ i miss u now la~ and i shall keep spamin u sms & mms!
My phone is finally here! Had also changed my number. Pls take note alrite~
Today. An off day for both sch n work. Just feel like taking a day off just stayin at home, catching my sleepin hrs back, to watch my fav tv shows etc..
Last wkend at work were really gd. Lunched with sup, ic n 2 other temps on sat made me realised some things as well. And yesterday. one of e best work day so far. and it seems im more assured of something..
Thanks to my fren whom had given me lotssss of advise on e phone last nite, despite lotssss of "complains" as well. wahahaha. It's really a time for me now to think carefully and make myself clear. Like what he said, no one can tell me what to do while im not even sure with myself.
I believe that i shouldnt say too much thing over here, although its my very personal blog. To prevent others from 闲言闲语. Perhaps, i still have 2 more days to think about this. And i hope he doesn read my blog as well or else, he will push me to say out as well. I shall prevent myself from callin/sms him from now till wed. (although i just did that this mornin..)
Am thinkin, is it so hard to just say I LOVE YOU out? I seriously dunno wat/how u think. im not even sure with myself too.
Perhaps, its also a time for me to think about what i want in life as well. Met up with Xie shun last sat nite n discussed on possible career paths, though its kinda stupid n silly. haha! nevertheless, think i still have 2 more yrs to think b4 i graduate from RP.
sigh. sian!
Today.
Sch was really sucks today. :( But luckily, i did not partial. *winks.
Sch sucks because; today's module sucks, meetin 1 & 2 sucks, presentations sucks too.
Also, i wore new shoes today. My toes were so damn hurt!
But, sch wasn't that sucks because; it's RP open house! Nothing special but at least i bought ice blended mocha at half price!
Met Daryl after sch and took train together. Chatted abt those old days in StarHub.. Reached dhoby gahut as early as 530pm. Went to search for strawberry yogurt smoothies but failed attempt. =( so i bought HL strawberry milk instead.
Work was happy cause.. *shh. No la. Because i get to sit beside Celia! wahahaha. Faced quite a number of disputes. and i had to approach my sup for like dunno how many times?
However, i left my mp3 AGAIN in office. =( SOBX! i believe i will be so damn bored tmr on my way to sch.................
My heart is heavily questioned..
Today.
Is a boring science UT + module.
Breakfast was spent together with my as usual breakfast clique, Joyce and Xue jun. Had my favourite economic rice. Fried egg + fried chicken + wedges that only cost me $2.30! And i bought strawberry yogurt smoothies too. Yummy!
Nabilah left as she went to zoo. -.- Wei liang and i were really too slack and we did nothing. So at 2.15pm, we left! And then we went marathon. From causeway point, to AMK hub, to Novena and then bugis. Ended up, i bought 2 pair of shoes and 1 bedsheet *grins.. some inside jokes.
I love youtube sooo much! Thanks to this user, xHeartstation. I am able to watch Ayu's Premium countdown 08-09 now!! Really appreciate that she sang tons of old songs! She even sang those songs that she dint even sang before live! It's really a nice concert (though i did not watch in order). She simply rocks!
Well well well. That person kept appearing on my mind. When the hell can he give me a call or drop me a sms? I feel like smacking him the moment i see him tmr!
No ponning sch anymore!!
Today.
Is a back to sch day. Back to RP.
All of a sudden. While on my way to sch, a question arose. Should i quit sch? As it seems rather no point attending sch everyday, doing PBL, and do not know where can i go, what can i do when i graduate. Might as well work full time in StarHub?? Since the pay that im getting now is higher than poly graduates nowadays?
Sigh. Just a random thought la. At least i get to see my classmates and eat RP food again!
Anyway, my phone is arriving on thurs!
Seems that i were rather angry yesterday when someone dint call me when he said he will?
Sian, meeting 3 startin soon. I wanna get home soon!
Happy new year! 2008 is really a fruitful year & it passes real fast! And just to add on to my previous post, my 2nd relationship started and ended in 2008 as well..
Sometimes, it's gd to recall. though it seems no point. At least we know how far we are now, and how far we had moved on. So,let's move on in 2009!
New year resolutions.. firstly,
This one! LG KC910 Renoir! Sorry for the "error" previously. I so wanna get this phone! StarHub pls launch some gd promos! And also, 1 yr later, i will sign up new cable tv once my sis's contract is up, and maybe few mths later, will sign up maxonline as well. Which means, i will be a hubber!
