AHH~! Ayumi!!! How i wish i can go to her concert again! AT JAPAN!! This time around, it's 3 hrs 30 mins long! Can someone sponser me to go?? *dream on!*

Sigh. Anyway, im determined to keep long hair! Real long hair..

I'm starting to give up..

***Edited 1143pm***

New blogskin! (: nice or not!

Spent my only off day doing up new blogskin at home, watch tv, eating my beadcurd with pearls.. And it's raining now. Shiokness.

I'm thinking of tying up my hair tomorrow. Have been experiencing bad hair days these few days. ):

Can't wait for the next overseas trip!

Dunno why, you are starting to be out of my mind..... ):

Today.
Finally had self-discpline to wake up early to go sch. After working 2 full shifts last weekend.

School was pretty fun today. Although it was Basic Science. Hmmm.

Nabilah wasn't in sch today. So only left myself, Weiliang, Lucien.

Quite slack la~ But im able to understand today's prob much better. (:

First break was spent with Joyce and Xue Jun. Saw Ming shun's gf finally. So qiao la, Jie min was her last sem's classmate.

I ate alot today la! Ordered 3 dishes for my mixed rice, 2nd break still went down to buy waffle!

Presentation time was fun too! Had a great time laughing.

After sch, walked to mrt with Wei liang & Lucien,and Lucien and i took mrt tgt.
Lucien saw his friend Vincent at mrt and then he came to sit with us. Wow! His Samsung Mp3 was super stylish la! Thin & it's touch screen! Was laughing at Lucien as he kept asking his friend on how to use it. And me? Ended up asking "How to sms ah?"!!! Stupid right!

Ohya, Lucien told me his friend is working at Starhub also! Shall check it out. haha.

Work today was alright. Nothing much as he only came to my desk and see how many oynx i left, and emailed me He going off le. -.-

And then. Home sweet home with Ming shun. Told me things abt him and his gf. interesting huh!

I'm starting to like Huang Mei Zhen! Her voice is so damn powerful la!

Also, i shall save up real hard now! And work hard!

Alright. Pics taken in class with Weiliang. He so act cute la!

*Yawn* Gonna slp now! VB tmr.. sian..

(:

Today.

Finally my blog is back to public again. At least, i feel comfortable to open my blog.
Communication module. Pretty easy.

Thinking whether i should go work today. Cramp is going on and off. I felt the urge to go home early. Have a proper dinner, watch 7pm & 9pm show, play with my dogs & turn in early. But i'm tempted to go work too. See how's my cramp and my mood later.

Recently, my pms is getting more and more obvious. Past few days, my mood was really CMI. And only until today my mood back to normal. BORING~

$$ in my bank is getting lesser and lesser. I'm really surprised by my spending power! It's just only 9 days since i have gotten my pay, & only left 1/4! SIAN~

All of a sudden, i felt the urge to get a new job, if i can get a job that pays me above $9/hr. Crazy right! I will still stay in Starhub, AT LEAST until end of the year. (:

Today.

I seriously really dragged myself to school. Was so so so tempted to sleep.. Dont wanna skip school for 3 continuous days.. And then last min go to work. Like yesterday.. haa.

I'm moodless today too. Dunno why. Feel so sian, so tired, so helpless. ):

Cognitive today so sucks too.

Yesterday.

I hate myself for being courage-less. ARGH! Seriously, i dunno what and how to do la. Maybe.. I'm wrong..

Cant wait for holidays to come. Cant wait for Year 2 to come. Cant wait for overseas trip to come. Cant wait for...........

edited *** 1.56pm***

Year 2 Sem 1 modules..
B201 - Market Sensing and Intelligence
B203 - Strategic Thinking Skills
B216 - Marketing
B217 - Sales Management

Seems soooo much better & interesting right!

Just woke up from a nap in class. Yawn..

I watched this movie today! A must watch! 4.5 out of 5!

Before movie, Lijia and i went to Suntec food fair. Not that attractive this time. But i bought 1 dozen of donut. (: and we had Swensen's dessert!

I realised, it's pretty good to have one whole day off. Off from school and work. At least, my brain is being off from RP's PBL and Starhub's DV.. It can be really stress and tiring at time. But what can i do? I need the diploma cert, i need money too.

爱的坦荡荡。 现在的我。。还没有勇气
How i wish. I have the courage for everything. Have the courage to speak out whatever i think, whatever i wish to say to someone. Even in my blog, i don't even have the courage to say I LOVE *****. (Although it's a private blog now).

How i wish, i can ask him "Hey want to go watch movie?". And really during work. Feel sort of stupid as i made a few stupid mistakes.. ): So sian la~ There's still sch tmr. 6 more weeks and i'm done with year 1!

Yesterday.
Didn't went to sch. Had a very nice sleep and i went to Far East to cut... BANGS! A new look luh.. Then i went to PS to buy 2 Levi's top. Hmm shall stop spending for now le.

Today.
As usual sch and work. But super happy today! The moment he saw my bangs, he said SO CUTE! It's really so so happy to hear something good abt yourself from someone you like. (:
LOVE.

Won't be seeing him over the weekends. Hopefully i wont get love sick huh.. hahahaha.
See so cute right! =p

Hmm. Had a module selection briefing in sch today. 6 more weeks of sch and i'm done with my Year 1 in RP! Damn excited. Year 2 coming up which means Core modules & PP!

miss miss miss la~

***4.12pm***

人。。都是怕受伤害的。我自己也不例外。
生病的我。什么事都觉得很累。很力不从心。
只要喜欢，就没有什么好后悔的。也没有什么＂非要不得＂的想法。 开心就好！
心里的他，永远都是最好的。(:
To be frank, he is really one of the best people that i have seen and known so far. No biasness ok!
& Hate being sick! Sick virus is spreading all around W45H =/

***11.58pm***
Today is one of the best day in my life. (:

This morning. I had a huge temption to continue to sleep when my first alarm rang at 7am. Snoozed too much and i ended up woke up only at 745am. Which means, I had to sacrifice my bathing time to immerse myself with a super nice & comfortable hot water bath. ): At least i managed to reach school just on time.

I'm so glad i went to school today. As it was fun! I love my W45H classmates. They are simply the best. With them, I can simply be myself and being pampered. *Despite i had a not-so-good team mate around. Thanks to them for making my days in RP more fun & interesting. (: Joyce, Jie Min, Xue Jun, Wei Liang, Nabilah, Joyhan.... So fun when Xue jun & i bought Yan Yan biscuit back to class to "suan" someone.

But Enterprise was interesting yet tiring. It's killing my brain cells. But it's nice when we had our faci back. Although it's kinda luo shuo as he loves story-telling.

Work today was bloody hell but was super nice as well. I realised that i am able to learn so much things from him. Be it in work or in life. I seriously enjoyed the 15-20 mins "heart-to-heart" talk. First time whereby i can talk to him personally that long. And of course the private emails during sch time & during work today. WAAA. To me, this is enough. Really good enough.

So, these are the reasons why i'm happy today. And also, i will still be in inbound sales for now! *Big wide smile! And.. Gotten my pay slip today & i was like WOW! And.. Received samples from FR3B!! (: (: (:

Can't wait for tmr!

I'm not sure whether i can put up these 2 emails of mine to my blog. Both emails were sent to me at 12.04am & 12.52am respectively. After reading these 2 emails, i almost cried in class la~ ): Don't know if they are too touching or i'm leaving inbound sales soon. Just wanna say, THANKS.

***edited @ 12.01am***

Hmm. I do not know how are the rest of the girls out there feel. I read my sec sch's classmate's blog. And i happened to saw her blog mentioning her 1st anniversary with her bf, whom was my ex bf. I still feel.... Sigh. Still having this feeling that "He used to be mine, and now..." BUT, that doesn't mean that i still love him la, just a random feeling. In this relationship, i really hurted a lot and had a hard time forgetting him. Anyway, hope that they can last long. Longer than me and him. 1 year 1 month. To be really exact, 5 oct 02 - 27 july 03, 9 months 22 days.

Anyway! Today was kinda.. cold. when i walked over to him and talked to him regarding some issues. saded. However, before he left, he patted on my chair and told me "Hang on there!" eww. So sweet right. And then, he still asked me to clear my oynx. -.- of course i argued back my oynx has really too much to clear!

Ok time for sleep!

1 week break from RP is over . and i'm still not in sch. But i had a nice nice sleep today. Recently, i feel so lost. Feel so sad. Feel so helpless. Seriously i don't know what to do. Don't know how to move on. Which step should i take. What is the mature way to do. ARGH! Who can help me. Suddenly, i feel so sick of RP. 2 more years to go. Hopefully someone/something can change that perspective of mine. All my mind is that person. Recently, all my smile seems so fake, as i don't have the mood at all. But whenever he's around, whenever he talk to me. My smile comes so naturally. He's the only one that can do that. But soon, i got to leave. =(( I hate those people that causes these to happen. And yet, they can happily hit their butt and walk out. But what about me? What about those people that still wanna stay. It's simply so damn hell unfair. How i wish..