I hate today!!!

ARGH! I simply hate today. Erm, though im in e midst of O levels, IM BLOGGIN NOW. Most of e papers r over. But not very well done. Esp today. =( First paper was chem. Obviously i wont pass it. Follow by geo. Was pretty ok, but not for map readin. Wat i studied dint came out. (!!) EL papers was ok. Topics for paper 1 quite ok. I tried to put in as much gd vocabs as i could. Afternoon math paper 1 really sucks! Damn difficult. At least 10 marks gone! Paper 2 slightly better. Had break yday as im not required to retake mt paper.



And today, im so disappointed w myself. I tot i was so fully prepared for poa paper. I spent 7 hrs studyin alone at mac yday. N woke up so early today to go sch super early. Pei shan was so shocked to c my msg so early. N i was e first O level student to reach sch today! Ms thng was so surprised to c me in sch so early. N reminded me to hv my breakfast. I had none of it. Poa paper was so........... Shocked to hv trial balance! Sec 3 work can! N i cant even balance it! Kinda tricky. E same goes to Tradin & Profit & Loss acc. Cant balance! Was rather stress. N, i was so damn STUPID!! Section B i did both questions, instead of 1!!!!!!!!!! I only realised it when Ms thng said "Pens down"!! Thus, i had only 10mins left to go back to my trial balance n Tradin questions, Tryin to balance it. It's so obvious tat i dont hv e time!!!!! I was v confusin as i dont even know which question to hand in. So i ended in question 5, which was e formula question. Outside hall, compared e figures we hv gotten (recorded right in our calculator! I only know my calculator has tis function today! Sua gu right?). Pan and mine ans was quite different, except for gross profit. Stock turnover also different!! I tot im dead tis time. No more A1. No more goin tourism course. Bad O level results........ All these thoughts occurin my mind. My tears started rollin down. Right outside e hall!!!



Had breakfast cum lunch at tiong kopitam w pei shan n kek bing. "Jeremy Mak!" joined us. He bought 三杯鸡. I hv not been eatin it for long time! So i bought myself one set too. Wok ard n went hm. On my way hm cs called me. went bugis to study. But. I LOST MY WALLET!!! ARGH!!! Most prob i dropped it on e bus. Sometimes i was v blur n careless n i often drop my wallet on e bus. Either i saw it myself or e passengers on e bus told me. So....... sigh. Called SMRT. Hopefully i'll receive calls form them tmr. =( Wat's in my wallet? Ez link card, 2 debit cards, few membership cards n, $60 plus cash!!!!! 一想到心就痛！很不甘愿！E $50 tat my mum gave me was to pay my bill! I felt so......... guity la. My family is not well off at all. My dad is not so often workin now, n now he has skin itchyness. Askin my sis for $ to c specialist. My mum is not workin. E money she is usin now is all her old savings $. I can c tat her savings r decreasin significantly. N i know she adores me. She will buy early breakfast for me sometimes(5 or 6 plus in e mornin!), buys lunch n dinner for me when im at hm. Gave me $ to buy concession every mth (When i do not hv e money). Things tat my mum has done for me is never endin. N my sis is e only one tat has stable income. Tat was e reason y i workin previously before O levels. Study n work at e same time. Tat was really so damn tiring. (Dear students out there, pls dont ever try doin tis unless u r facin e same prob as me, n tat is not fun at all! N it will definately affect ur studies!) Sigh. 我也不知道自己是怎么熬过来的. So, losin my wallet tis time. Is not just bein irresponsible to myself, but to my family too. =(. I remember i lost my wallet when i was in sec 2 too. n i cried in front of my ex bf. I lost $50 cash too. Sigh..



Today is really 双重打击. After much thinkin, y not out it in a positive way? If i dint do well for my poa, at least i can try goin other courses in poly? if not goin private sch? Losin of wallet, it's a chance for me to change new wallet! But, I still cant help feelin sad. 我真是一个傻瓜！



This song is really nice. 傻瓜 by 温岚. Was listenin to tis song on e bus b4 i dropped my wallet. N now im even more 傻瓜!

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

Sian. Bio paper tmr. Must chiong for SS tis wkend!

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