好久没有用华文blog了。hehe。

没有laptop在身旁好辛苦哦。:(

最近好忙哦，自然而然时间很快过。希望我不会忽略很多事情吧! :)

最近也没有什么想他, 学校真的太多事情忙了。希望我能用功一点!

so many things coming up to do! birthdays, UTs, attachment's interview n workshops, work n to sign up svcs for frens etc.

wanna shop n movies!

he was late for sch.

he seems v sleepy.

he is still having running nose.

...

edited @ 1126am..

he went off and i byebye-ed to him.

today.

finally i dragged my feet to sch. Guess what, it's Business Statistics lei. already started to regret going to sch today since meeting 1. sigh.

Lucky i joined another grp that will not stress me out that much. So Nigel and I did nothing except listening to Tongtong's songs and other oldies. Meeting 3, faci still asked ME, (yes me) and Mathila to present.

since didn't hear from me for so long. -According to faci.

Sian to the max.

Dragged my feet to work as well. Was super sleepy on train, so i decided to walk from bartley mrt station to office. 1 stone kill 3 birds! i can keep myself awake, and to do a little exercise & kills some fats, and save bus transport! :D

was rather moodless at work, until my sis msg me, Tongtong won Best Single Producer @ today's YES 933 award! its a pity that he dint come. :(

of course, i shared this gd news to Mr. Lua as well. he seems no reaction on this issue at all, but instead asking me, do i have his songs?

& here am i, sending Tongtong's songs to him via email. 1 by 1.

nvm la, im still happy happy happy!

16 more days!

UT sucks

HTM's UT today really sucks la.
although i did tourism before back in O level days, at least i still can finish lor.
this time round, think i missed 2/3 questions, BLANK.
but many of us also la, but i hope at least a.. B?

Financial accounting UT in 2 wks later, die die must get an A!
think i must work hard for this semester le. :)

Watching Daddy's At Home!

this guy, Mr. Lua. i can admit, he is really really pro.

i have not seen this guy for 4 mths+, and until now, he is still always appearing on my mind.
24/7, 7 days a week.

was really glad to see his sms out of sudden, after when i MMS him a picture of my dogs the day before.

im still glad there is still a link between us. which is, STARHUB.
hahahaha.
have been trying my best to reduce his mobile subscription (by right is mine)
30% hub club discount. i sacrifice my mum's line just to allow him to enjoy the discount.
free 6 mths Caller ID somemore. total he has enjoyed 9 mths free!

see how much he can save! hahaha.
and im like still in charge of his cable tv & mol.

i just hope. this can last forever.
i just hope. he wont get drain out because of work.
i just hope. maybe i can just glance at him once in a while?
i just hope. he will occasionally msg me for random chat like what he did?
i just hope. i can still smile and even laugh to myself when reading his past email and sms.

sigh. go to slp la!

btw, 20 more days to his birthday! how much cool can that be!

OMG

i somehow have nothing to do so i goggled my full name.
Other than my own blog, i found this page.
-.-""""
is like OMG la. Student photo so damn ugly still wanna post! On school website somemore.

...

e72 e72 e72.........

jiayou!

am telling myself.

ATTENDANCE THIS WEEK 100%! & NO LATE & PARTIAL!

IF FULFILLED WILL REWARD MYSELF W A FRESH HAIRCUT NEXT WK! :D

just back from a short outing with Bestie. miss him!

dont be so emo at times le k..

no idea why, my gum is swollen n painful. :(

anyway work today was pretty good. cause i answered inbound again! but not much sales la. all call in talk cock only. lunched with Wayne and ThaiSeng. :)

dont say i emo. just that im somehow troubled.
1. which uni to go?
2. when can i buy flat for my mum?
3. when can i buy car?
4. how will things be like between me n him?
5. i miss him la. :(

:(

oh ya,

1 more month to Mr. Lua Yong Liang's birthday!! :D :D

i went sch today! :D

wahahaha. eyesore wasnt here today. so everything went well! *chicken feet la

anyway, there's Education Fair today. took some booklets home. i wonder, should i study uni?? hmmmm.

btw, i admit that my mood today was weird, i think?

i had no idea why i just pissed off, with people?

i do not know how. should i live for myself or others? should i compromise myself for e sake of others, or opposite way? should i make myself happier or others more?

I DUNNO LA.

how much more sucks can this be.

nevertheless, there's something that i can conclude : food does affect mood.

cause im hungry!!

opps. skipped sch today.

missed Service Quality module for 2 times le. -.- cant pon for next 13 weeks already! T.T

guess what, i went to work. just to close one sale for a customer that requested for installation tmr.

FINALLY my ez link is back to me. it passed to YuTian-ThaiSeng-Wayne-Marion-Me. -.-

no more privacy already la. plus my photo is super damn ugly. :(

alrite. better do some housechore n turn in early. 830am class tmr!

all of a sudden, 觉得自己很幸福。

it was nice hanging out with Judy, Felicia, YuTian, Gillian, Gina, Alfred, JunRong, TaiSeng, Ethan & Gina's bf last sat.

Social house is fun!

Had no idea why we ended up at one of the thai disco at Golden mile there. damn sian lor. toliets there r damn stink n poor Felicia dropped her phone in the toliet bowl. -.- if is me i rather throw e phone away lor.

homed at 4+am n slept for around 5 hrs and at 11am. -.-

sun worked as usual. but some issues pissed me off.

sigh.

4 Days 3 Nights in Taipei are simply fulfilling.

People here are v friendly, and lots of hot guys. :p

Hv experienced different culture, different living habits. But the heart of the people are similar.

Especially Khaili's concert! :D
Really love and admire his music more and more.

Blog again when im officially back to Singapore.

I love Taipei!

失落沙洲

我不是一定要你回来 只是当又一个人看海 回头才发现你不在 留下我迂回的徘徊 我不是一定要你回来 只是当又把回忆翻开 除了你之外的空白 还有谁能来教我爱

top sales for the month of September 09!

woohoo. (:

work has been pretty boring without Judy Chan around. ):

but finally i will be seeing her on wed! yayyayyayyayyay!

but in TM, i have one 斗嘴的对象. is one fat guy, name Seah Thai Sing Nobel.

his name is super funny already. "Thai for Thailand, Sing for Singapore" that's how he explain his name to his customers. And my office is right in Tai Seng, Nobel building. how lame can that be.

at least, spending time like this in office makes my day entertained, as well as my neighbours and my sup.

had fever last sat, no choice but to slp for e whole afternoon. wasted la. no idea why, my throat has been feeling very pain, especially when i swallow. i wonder if drinking warm water helps. ):

going to Taiwan in 19 days time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so gonna collect all my bad debts so that i will hv sufficient $ to go!

finally understand how does one night stand comes about.
NOPE i will never agree to it.

it happened just like a dream.

will be going Taiwan next month! Woohoo!

blogging using phone once again.

life is getting boring. no mood for work tmr AT ALL.

reason? Comex IT show is starting tmr! who will bother to ans my call? while promos tat i can give r all so damn not attractive.

only closed 1 new dv n mol recon. :(

needs new sales badly. :( :(

first time i feel tat holidays r not happy n fun at all..

wow. to think that im still awake now!

aiya. who cares? people will only starting work at 1pm later. :D

have been doing quite a number of self reflections recently.

我承认我是一个嘴硬心软的人。so i think, 我常常会后悔自己曾经做过，和应该做的事但没有做的事。

我也不是一个喜欢拍马屁的人。尤其是拍老板或者喜欢的男生的马屁。我不喜欢依靠其他人，都尽量靠自己。so i think, 可能是这个的缘故，我的“人气”就没有那么好？at the same time, 我又是一个容易也害怕寂寞的人。我想，做我的男朋友应该不容易吧！哈哈。

J told me that she and G had a bet, if he were to come back to me one day, will i still accept him？G betted Yes while J betted No. Initally, this was a good question to me. Slowly, i recall on the past memories and i asked myself the reason why i used to like him. i thought i will bet No as well. But i told myself, my answer will be Yes. and then, i asked myself Why?

Reason being: 我还没有找到一个会爱他多过爱你的人。

haiz. anyway, i will still be contacting him one day to seek help for my PP in which will be due on 7 oct!

if im not wrong, 6 hours later, Rayson Oh will be enlisted le!
take good care. awaiting for his meal treat 2 weeks later!

its 3am le. time to sleep!

mobile training tmr. zzzz.

rather a disappointing day.

"With the new MaxMobile SurfLite, everyone can now enjoy unlimited mobile broadband! Surf at speeds of up to 2Mbps everywhere in Singapore.
Sign up today and enjoy a whopping 50% OFF monthly subscription at just $19.36 monthly monthly (Usual $38.72), plus a FREE mobile broadband modem."

Resource: http://www.starhub.com/promotions/broadband/maxmobilesurflite.html

See! Isn't it great! I would like to sign up for that too. I can't as i have an existing mobile phone under my name. =(

Anyway, whoever is interested pls call me @ 91441764 alrite!

Im too desparate for sales already. =(

1st day in TM. 1 recon.
2nd day. 6 recon.

how about today?

had fever yesterday morning. but still went to work. it wasn't seem as good. ):

but he was still damn sweet la. From a friend's perspective la.

more sales pls!

我值得你对我好吗？

yesterday. 23 aug. one of the sweetest day.

6 more months to 21st bday!

Giving myself a very short break first.

Mugging for UT3 currently at home! Hope i can do well. Feels like back to O level days, keep booming notes.

This wk might be a tough week. But will be over soon!

And soon, i will be offically a TM agent.

*sales come to me!

Btw, Ayumi's new song Sunset ~Love is all~ is DAMN nice! (:

Will be back soon.

Yes i know, im dread of taking planes.
But, i yearn for a holiday.

I wanna breathe fresh air in a foreign location.

I wanna shop, sit in a cafe drinking coffee (but i will order chocolate drink or frappe as i dont drink coffee. haha!) like nobody's business.

I wanna go Taiwan~

today.

i am blogging because today is a significant day.

it's been a week since i left StarHub.

im behaving like an old woman, doing nothing but only pondering on the past memories.

the good old days in Haw Par. obviously.

also, today marks the 6th month for the last outing.
the movie ticket stub is still safely kept in my wallet.

only until today, i totally realised that its totally not worth it.

why am i still at the same position while he has already moved on, holding another girl's hand.

NOPE I WONT CRY.

staying strong at the moment.

hi all!

So so many things happened to me nowadays.

Firstly, im down with H1N1 =(

i had super high fever last thur and fri, and i even fainted at my block lobby.

i recovered on sat and i still couldn't go to work. =(

i spent 4 days at home, doing nothing but watching tv, online and isloated myself in my bedroom. when i had already recovered.

IT WAS LIKE LIVING IN HELL

and then, i went back to work yesterday. it marked my last day in StarHub too.

the feeling is never good.

today. back in school. had missed today's module for super long time. kind of weird stepping in E66N again.

3 more weeks and im done with sem 1.

going for shopping and haircut after sch! :D

*EDITED 25/7.
Haiz..

BTT later. Die die must pass! A round of shopping before my test though. :D

wish me all the best friends. (:

hello people!

elaine is back for blogging!
some things to share with u guys! :D

resources & further details - http://www.cozycot.com/shop/product/67248

i just bought this at SASA today and they are having promotion with 20% disc!

After disc is ONLY $15.90! :D

Since it was recommended from 女人我最大 and press release from i-weekly, so why not?
i just applied it for ard 20 mins ago, inital 1-3 mins, the surface applied on my stomach will start turning warm. And soon. the fats will be gone! wahahaha.

shall update again 12 days later to see whether it is effective?

Den i can flee from California Fitness! :D :D :D

was reading Agnes' blog just now. (resource - http://www.aggylow.com/)

was thinking on my past and current status as well.

So i shall update mine too!

As many of you guys are aware, for the past months, my mood hasn't been very good due to a guy.

Not trying to say that I love him only before, in fact, had a few "weird" experiences with some other "significant" guys.

Let's recall!

Can still remember, the very first guy (in fact boy)that i "fell in love" with, was during primary 1-3! my very own classmate. He wasnt a chinese but he was a very very fun, yet super smart boy!

That was puppy love still.

After that, when i was in primary 5, my very own classmate again. We liked each other, but never really confess to each other (knowing in our hearts) but the relationship broke off when my best friend at that time invaded in..

That was 50% puppy love still as i wasn't really hurt by it yet.

My very first ex appeared when i was in secondary 1. my very own classmate again again. He was the one that took the initiative to get close to me. At that point of time, i had a crush with his best friend. Scenerio was pretty similar to 流星花园 wahahaha. But of course, that guy didn't like me as he already had girlfriend. The very first date with him was at bugis, with his younger bro, and we watched Ice Age 1. As time goes by, i began to accept him. The very first holding of hand was on 5 oct, 2002. And we watched The Matrix.. We broke up on 27 july 2003 due to some childish emotions and arguments.

I was totally hurt because of this relationship. I remembered that i skipped school for a wk just to stay at home.

it took me almost 2 years to get over this relationship and at the same time, i decided to work hard for my studies as i retained during secondary 3. (together with him -.-) so, during my secondary school years, i only had 1 relationship despite of having crush with other guys from different classes.

And then, i graduated from GESS in 2007! and busied working at Earle Swensen's & Canon for 1 month plus.

Until i met this guy in Earle Swensen's in nov.. Went out with him once with my friend tagged along, but it didn't turn out well. He resigned soon after that.

My 2nd relationship started on 14 feb 08 (romantic right?!) with another guy in Earle Swensen's as well.

Well, some significant memories with him were the ZOO outing, and the date when he bought me my birthday gift..

At the same time, i entered RP on 20 apr. Got to know many new people, trying to adopt myself in PBL. We had together for only months plus and i asked for a breakup. Reason being that we had too little time for each other, busying with our own life, and definitely this is not that kind of relationship that i want.

I joined StarHub on 11 aug as part time sales staff, slowly i got to know this guy. Am sure many of you are aware. I had a lot pleasant times with him and that's really really enough for me.

And now! I'm in RP year 2. 2 weeks ago, my mood was especially down as I went through a lot of bad moments. With that guy, did not do really well for my studies and i'm leaving StarHub very soon. I was very depressed until i once thinking of ending my life.

Was thinking of 黎础宁 as well. If you guys know her, she was 2nd runner up from 3rd 超级星光大道. she killed herself because of relationship.

resources - http://yule.sohu.com/20081125/n260834807.shtml

Feeling damn sad as she was my favourite singer. BUT, if death is really the best way for her to feel better, so why not? :(

I JUST NOTICED. 黎础宁'S DEATH ANNIVERSARY IS ON YONG LIANG'S BIRTHDAY.

SO HOW SHOULD I FEEL ON THAT DAY?

neverthless, life is still pretty good for me. I passed my basic theory evaluation on thurs! Like finally! And i will be having my basic theory test on tues! Grrrrr.

and NOW, i am rather having a very neutral feeling towards relationship now. Like, "have then have, don't have then don't have lor" attitude. Although i'm having a crush with a guy, let fate lead the way ba!

Happy school day tomorrow!

boo!

will be back for blogging soon!

happy me :D :D :D :D

time for new blogskin too!

hi all!

today is a good day!

had a nice slp today, and then met Xue Jun!

super long nv c her le!

we had Swensen's for lunch. 1 for 1 is the last day!

as usual, i had my fish baked rice. yummy!

and then, we went for manicure & padicure @ citibella!

only cost us $6 and $12!

they are pretty professional. The girl that served me has a VERY smooth and tender hand! is like WOW..

hehehehe.

and then, we went to Beauty Credit and bought LOTS of stuff!

for myself, i bought 2 peeling gel (Rice & Soy and Grape & Lavender), pink pearl powder, 2 kiwi yogurt pack for my sis and Coenzyme Q10 BB cream! and we gotten Boys over Flowers DVD, Massage & facial voucher, 2 sets of skin samples and a big pack of "For Men" facial wash!

happy happy :D

as we took too long on choosing the products to buy, i overshoot the time for me to go BBDC for my Basic Theory Evaluation at 455pm. :(

nevertheless, we still made a trip there and Xue Jun enrolled herself in too! :D

and then, home sweet home.

WORK TMR!

no idea why im getting nervous. =x

hello people!

I am back from.. bangkok!

Bought damn alot of things. and alot things happened in bangkok!

other than shopped, ate & slp, Willie lost his handphone on first day, last night was really errrrr!

let me further elaborate.
we went for clubbing as it was our final night and we had to ton!
met Chris over there as well! drank, dance, laughed.
after that, as Chris was super drunk, we had to cab and send him home.
the damn STUPID and SUCKED taxi driver doesn even know where is the hotel!
claimed that he KNOWS b4 we boarded the cab!
ended up. he drove us for like dunno how many rounds!
Chris puked suddenly and we had to clean up as we wouldn't want to pay anything extra to that sucker.
after we cleaned up, that sucker still insisted us to pay him! we refused and he started pulling Willie's shirt. after that, pulled Sam's shirt as well!
Bashed Chris as well when he was still drunk! Damn goodness!
Sam was super furious as well and he poured water when that sucker went back to his cab.
AND..
that sucker came out from his cab with.. A KNIFE!
what does he wanted to do? snab us?
he was stopped by a hotel staff and "SAVED us"
since he cant do that, he took a handful of soil and threw at us.
WTF!

after the sucker left and we continued finding our way to find the hotel.

END OF STORY.

damn scary!

haiz.
anyway, on my way back on train, Wayne called me and was told that i had to quarantine myself for work a week!! :( :( :(

I SHOULD QUARANTINE MYSELF FROM SCH AS WELL!
I WANNA SLP UNTIL I DIE.

drinking my bird nest now!

i think ive grown fat too =x

EMO too as he is not talking to me. missed him like mad for the past 10 days. that's what i gotten back.

IT'S OKKKKK.

today.
b4 i leave SG for Bangkok, got to check my daily grades for now.
2 absence so far. 2 more X due to the trip. Grades for Sales Management & Marketing are so far the best.
Straight Bs except 1 irritating C.

anyway.
lesson today is fun! finally had a hands-on lesson.
Basically, we were given 3 products from SUI!, and we had to walk ard the sch to sell!
The products are, 1 male tshirt $18.90, 1 toothbrush holder $5.90 & 1 card case $5.90.
My team did a very good job as we sold EVERYTHING! :D
thanks to the 2 facis and the grp of guys that bought from us!
despite being attitude-d by others which included faci! -.-""
and it's rather tiring too as we faced rejection alot of time, walked alot too!

But seriously, hard work does pays off. :D :D

Anyway, lots of things to do later when sch ends!

Gonna head to chinatown for $$ changing, buy my dearest Ayumi concert DVD, heading to mum's house to take my sling bag & watch the concert, buying kfc for my sis & back home to pack my stuff!

Aside to Delcry, plsssss take goody care. see u if i can see u.

fri.
i bought this cap instead of the other cap! Nice ma??
Anyway, marketing lesson was pretty fun!
After buying the cap at far east after sch, went for advanced Fathers' Day dinner.
First year having that with 2 fathers.
Dinner was held at Chinatown. I ordered alot!
1x sausage & chic rice
2x egg tart
2x lotus bau
1x prawn chee cheong fun
1x har kao!
had fun chatting and laughing at well.

but, i did something very stupid today. =(
and held my phone n awaited for a never-can-receive sms.

sat.
nothing much. just work and work. late-d again.
lunchtime was....... =(
after work went to drink with Winnie, Erik & Adrian.
think i drank quite alot as i vomitted when i get home. =x
but had fun there as well.

sun.
worked & late-d again. last day @ work! woohoo.
super hungry as well, as i accompanied Judy for lunch.
when i arrived to office, saw 1 offline msg from him..
"tomorrow no work ?"
haiz.......
cleared my work. time for me to have a good rest.
9 days away from StarHub.
hope my TL doesnt msg me anything with regards to work.

today.
wore my Stay Real cap to sch!
classmates say it look nice to me. wahahaha!
but, having monday blues. =(

nevertheless, i wanna buy this shirt!

today's lesson is pretty interesting. time for me to plan something ahead.

maybe, it's really time for me to let go. but is that really so easy to do so? not sure whether im emo again, but..... i really hope i can be a real happy girl, with lots of friends and lives a carefree life.

FANG DA TONG! i love himmmm!

yesterday.

first day @ new office. super sucks. i had dunno spent how much on the stupid cab farr. was late for work somemore. lunchtime with Winnie, Willie & Kenneth was.... too much time to spend! food was only okok, lucky Judy introduced a bakery shop, selling pretty nice donut! some issues occurred that caused me n Gab to feel unhappy.. =( but shall not get bothered by it too much ya!

also, yesterday was Samuel's last day. he drove us to kembangan for supper! we had very nice prata & satay! photos available @ FB..

all e best Sam..!

today.
reached sch pretty early and i bought subway cookies! $2.50 only after 15% disc! :D nice nice nice. lesson pretty sucks and i was super duper sleepy. had fun taking videos of us in focus grp!
meetup Agnes after sch for early dinner, window shopped @ CWP and back home SLEEP!
oh ya, saw a guy @ CWP who wore the same shirt that Yong Liang wore yesterday! msg him and told him that..

slept tooooo long and i missed my gym session =(

and now. super no mood to study for UT tmr. i guess i need some motivation.
6 more days to BK trip! cant wait to go man!

Advanced Fathers' Day dinner tomorrow!

can i own this cap?

*edit 18/06.
it's arriving tomorrow!

yesterday.

last day of work for Mong Tan & Chris. =(
super sad.
i will miss calling Mong Tan from now.
no longer able to disturb him.
no longer able to poke his mole.
i will miss Chris sitting next to me during work.
no longer seeing him borrowing access pass from me.
dunno why i can laugh over everything he speaks.

i missed the steamboat session @ bugis. =(
but joined them for drinking @ crazy elephant.
fun!!
but........ =(
i was quite abit drunk and i think i crapped alot infront of him?
omg i feel sooooooo.
was thinking, he and 2 others were away for super long. was he giving me a chance to interact with others?
i dunno. i was told that i am missing a good chance. am i?

today.
worked FULL after sleeping for merely 4 hrs.
calls today are....... super damn alot!
all thanks to PC show. -.-

last day working @ haw par....
after 10 mths 4 days.

after today..
no longer taking mrt to dhoby gahut
no longer lunch at PS/MS/Park mall
no longer bubble tea from sweet talk
no longer seating at my favourite seat.
no longer looking at him from that very angle.

memories in haw par are very precious to me.
i feel so emotional when i see stuffs over there are getting lesser n lesser, all are packed in boxes, all pc had to shut down......
maybe im far too emotional?
haizzz.

my hell days will be coming soon. =(

anyway.
i think im gonna enjoy myself tomorrow. shall skip sch!
shall..
gym. kbox. eat!

最近在读一本日本手机小说，它提到＂谈了恋爱，有可能幸福，也可能痛苦。因为旁人的规劝而就能放弃的爱情，根本不是爱情。＂

好同意这句话哦。。

最近的我。不知道过得好不好。每天都在想着他。
我相信，我会一直一直喜欢着他，就算现在我已经知道，完全没有结果的。

几天前，我又哭了。好害怕。以后就不会再看见他了。但是，有什么用呢。

现在，我都不敢正眼看着他。还是会心跳加速哦。。

手上的戒指是为他而戴的。代表着，我对他的爱。我真的打从心里觉得，我不会喜欢其他男生了。我的世界只有他。。

就算有时候，我会感到寂寞，感到脆弱和无助，那也是没办法的事。能够认识他，已经是件很幸运和幸福的事了。

我会。。。
给他自由。
祝他幸福，一直快乐。
把那短暂的回忆永远地放在心里。

不求回报的我，能够得到幸福吗。。？

p/s: 大家请不用担心！我会过得好好的。。。。

http://seeking-that-dream.blogspot.com

is temporary closed down.

nothing much to blog. are all daily routine. work, sch, supper, gym.

* i dunno how long can i last.

黄丽玲 难得
词:古皓 曲:古皓

我还记得 我挽着你的手
天冷时候一起躲在棉被中
那时我们不害怕犯错 那时以为天空多辽阔
朋友都说 你后来变真多
总是避谈纯真坦白那时候
体贴的人不再追问我
只说你也有梦 他也有梦 虽然难得不必心痛

我以为我成熟 以为从此就自由
我尝试着快乐 快乐却不陪着我
爱没有回来了 你已经离开我
回忆紧紧缠着我 像当初不肯放手
我以为我成熟 以为我能好好过
我尝试着堕落 当我想你的时候
爱不会回来了 你已经离开我
却一直住在我心中

如果傻傻的承诺 现在还在一起吗
情侣龃龉常常有
如果寂寞的时候 已经学会去推托
他也有梦 我也有梦
虽然难得 不必心痛

这样的爱实在难得

today.

i just wrote a post right before this. but im not gonna publish it. its an emo post anyway.

just back from supper with Gab & Willie. its so super damn not worth it. =(

holiday is here! i wished for something exciting.

its 1st of june. time flies.

2+ mths more and im working SH for a year.

5+ mths since my life changed alot.

im tired. i need a break.

im yearning like mad. I WANT THOSE DAYS BACK. *but its mission impossible.

AND right now, my bro-in-law is watching The Punisher.. =(((

today.

is last day of sch! finally get to have a rest from sch for 2 wks. :D

and also, i have a small and simple wish. but its a mission impossible. or can i?

life is getting better now. is happy enough for me.

favourite hobbies nowadays are just.. listening to mp3, eating supper, playing facebook & msn.

finally sorted out my thoughts as well.

had so many cravings too!

yesterday was the launch of circle line. and im gonna take circle line later! :D

today.
i wanna curse that person.
i will seriously curse you for being such a cheapo, low class, dishonesty & making a fool of yourself!
just because of someone that i dont even who, my darling $150 Nike sports shoe was stolen today!
heart broken to the max. =((((((

i find myself super useless. i feel like wasting my own time, my own life. why am i doing and thinking of things that are totally a waste of time?

why am i loving someone when i will never ever get loved?
why am i trapped in that very small circle. why cant i get out?

nevertheless... if i am given a chance... if time can goes back...

i will still choose this path...

holidays holiday.. im yearning for u..

*super no mood to study for UT tomorrow.

today.
i have no idea why. im too extremely tired.
i ate super alot too.
for example.
fri.
suppered with Celia, Matthew, Soon Ming, Wille, Mikey & Gab @ Cafe Cartel. good one as we saw performance by Shen mu yu tong and e rest! :D
sat.
lunched with Gab, Marcus & Ci'en @ LJS.
suppered with Willie & Gab @ Xin Wang
today.
lunched with Chris, Gab, Judy & Winnie @ Billy Bombers.

... i feel super damn fat now. =( but i enjoyed!!

NOW. super tired. lucky i studied 6P during work just now. haiz.

1 more week to go. Go go go!
UT tomorrow & thurs. sian lor. Sales Management & Marketing.

holidays come soon quick!

in short.
im just emotionally & physically tired. =((

today.

long and tiring day. woke up late. had to bath super fast n dashed out.

changed team today.

new team members for Market Sensing module. Daniel, Orange, Yanni and Dhirah. problem was pretty hard and i did my job ok!

Very tiring as well. Headed to PP workshop with Alica, Orange and Elma after sch.

Seriously, i do not know what to do for PP yet! Stress... Promise, will start doing next week!

after PP workshop, it rained!Elma and i had to take bus to mrt. im so convinced to get myself driving liscene!

anyway, finally think through. i decided to return him the freedom. thanks alot to Judy for all e advises. I wont "disturb" him anymore. Perhaps, all i can do is to wait. and keep myself busy. perhaps i can get over.

Well! sch holiday is coming real soon again! i wanna go overseas! i wanna have class outing! i wanna go ktv! i wanna go shopping! :D

ps: there is this weird person calling himself/herself "the ghost" and tagged me. seems like die die dont wan to reveal?

yawn!

today.

sch is pretty fun as dress code for today is FORMAL! due to my Sales Management module.

haiz. it can be a hard chore as i can no longer bring my backpack to sch. so i had to place my lappy in DKNY handbag, n its damnnnn heavy can! =/

had a crazy time laughing and joking in class while preparing the presentation. :D

damn scary too as we had to present in lecture room! something different n its cool too! my team had a hard time struggling too as we were the first team!

camwhored too after presenting. photos to be up soon!

after that, Nigel, Greyton, Daniel, Grace, 1 more girl and i went ahead to E66N for our first UT!

pretty easy but i spotted 1 careless mistake! :(

stayed in class after UT and Daryl came to my class. trained together!

oh my, i miss those old old times in StarHub with RP temps. =(

back home. rested and went jogging! :D i wonder how much fats were murdered. =/

had dinner, watched Fang Da Tong's live and here am i slacking!

n its time to slp now!

supper tomorrow again! can i?

in red -hope Jay wins!
in green - im stuck as both of them rocks!

but since he said Fang Da Tong, let it be ba! jia you!

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fri.
sch as usual in morning and work after sch. rained!
suppered with Lynn, her husband, Winne and Judy at liang court!
not too bad la.
we discussing on going to Genting in june!


sat. full shift.
pretty slack again!
lunched with Wayne, Celia, Winnie, Gab and Marcus at The Cathay!
it's nice! :D
dinner break with Gab, Kenneth and Mikey. joked along the way.
suppered with Gab again at Cafe Cartel! pictures uploaded in FB.


sun. full shift again.
2nd to reach office despite being late.
lunched with Gab and Willie. *dulan with particulat someone =x
and we had kfc!
again. slacked as well. and too much time to take pictures!
dinner break with Gab, Judy and Chris.
once again, suppered with Judy at Cafe Cartel!
chatted alot with Judy! made me realised some stuff as well.

This is the tall Chris! his pants is cute right?! wahaha

look at how "busy" they are.

my hair is so damn nice at this pic.

and this is me today in sch!

today.
RC-ing during work. Willie asked..
WHY ARE THERE 2 RABBITS IN UR RESTAURANT? *as circled

laughed out loud!

Lots of things to be updating soon!

yesterday.
another working day.
but someone's status unknown. heard that he only woke up @ 4pm?

anyway, had kfc for lunch with Celia, Winnie, Willie & Kenneth as i brought coupon!
woohoo! but not able to play RC as there's no flashplayer on my com. =(

and then. had supper @ Cafe Cartel again! with Gab, Mike & Samuel!
this time round, is really damn fun. Laughed and joked alot. :D
thanks so much for the entertainment n im no longer that emo.
and sorry that my jokes are all not funny. =(

Pictures time!

Our frappes!

The 3-in-1 fries!

Spicy drumlets!

Mike ordered Eastside Brownie and its dammnnn nice!
Initally, e guys were camera-shy..

and then....

Mike started stupid these stupid looks!

The pretty us (:

Took this pic in my room & it was TOTALLY dark! my phone's flash is damn powerful rite?!

Yuuki hide under the bed.

today.

my team was totally slacking and we decided to partial!
people involved: Elaine, Javinna, Nigel, Daniel & David!

The guys were caught partial!

Happy and tired me.

5 of us went CWP and went to watch Star Trek. Nigel dint wanted to watch as he had already watched it. Both me and Nigel wanted to watch Angels & Demon but the show started too late..

Star Trek was... err.. i dont really understand e movie and i fell aslp a couple of time.

Nigel was sitting beside me, he kept moving and going to toliet!

home sweet home after that. (:

Collected my new ezlink card as well! Cool rite.

While clearing my emails.. saw these a/c..

in conclusion: i miss those wonderful days...

anyway, my period is here. maybe these few days of emo-ness is due to PMS?

today.

im home! just checked my bank a/c. my pay is in! :D

i must save up for upcoming GSS!

anyway. HAPPY VESAK DAY :D *random

which means, double pay today! :D x10000000000

work was damn fun. err. should i say, i only worked with my 50% effort?

e other 50%, busy playing Restaurant City & Hell's Kitchen, crapping with the peeps!

lunched with Willie, Soon Ming, Jun Hong & Tan Chin Ping. Soon Ming, Jun Hong and i ate Indonesian BBQ's fried chicken!! Yummyyyy! it tasted much much better as compared with TBP's one. =x

but.. after 6pm.. when morning shift peeps left.. there's only me and him.. just call me stupid, useless or whatever name u guys can call. i did nothing, nothing and nothing.. but, everytime when he sniffed & sneezed, haiz. heart pain.. but i spoke nothing to him, neither it seems that i care for him..

wanted to go KTV with Duncan and the grp after work one.. but im working full shift again tmr..

nevertheless! went PS with Ylva, Samuel and Mike. went Best Denki and ate Cafe Cartal! guess what! 50% disc for snackers & coffee drinks! woohoo! we order waffle fries, spicy drumlets, 2 oreo frappes and 2 caramel frappes, total is only $16!

was super funny when we were walking to mrt via underpass, Ylva touched Mike's mole at his neck and said Press the button, Mike was on the phone, gave a very big reaction and said Stop pressing the button! laughed our ass off!

right before i type this sentence @ 12.13am, wished Xiao Di happy friendship day! time flies huh.. it's been 4 months!

i know, im stupid. im wasting my time. im foolish. im brainless. im useless. i kept saying i wanting to let go. but, i cant. i wont want as well. i still love him as much as day 1, in fact, much more. it seems that im avoiding him, it seems that he is avoiding me as well. i have no intention to get into a new relationship with any other guy. what can i do? just wait and wait and wait. im lived to waste my time. that's all.

today.
another dedication post.
this time round, is to Toh Kai Jie, aka KJ.

He is StarHub Sales Hotline 1630 InboundSales Supervisor.. until today.

I can still remember. From the first few days at work, he introduced himself to me, to facing certain disputes/billing error, to waving Peace sign to me.

He is a really nice superior, never fails to joke with us and makes the working environment much much stress-less.

What's more, before he left the office, he waved the last Peace sign to me, after waving goodbye to everyone. It's damn saddening but of course, i dint cry la!

Last email, with heading "Farewell." is really damn saddening as well.

KJ, definitely u wont be reading this post. However, really wish u all the best for everything ahead. It's really nice knowing u. Thanks for all the advise as well.

:D

today.
a dedication post to my sister.

my sister is the best sister in the whole wide world.

2/3 days before, she passed me a highlighter that she took from office, so that i can use it for sch/work. so i randomly asked her, does her office has sharpener? and she said shouldnt be.

so i thought. story should ended like that.

however.
yesterday, as i came home after going out with Lijia after sch, i was so super sleepy and i took a nap. i saw my sis came into my room and opened my cupboard, forgotten what she did already.
i woke up and watched tv with my sis, she did not mention anything at all.

after tv, i opened my cupboard, to my surprise, i saw a sharpener! i know it was my sis placed it for me... silently..

after i saw the sharpener, i cried immediately (of course no one knows la)
and i realised how good my sister is..

- she will change my bedsheet EVERYTIME as i seriously do not have the time and dont even know how often i changed =x
- she will collect my washed clothes and placed them on my bed.. *i admit, i lazy..
- she takes super good care for her husband and the doggies!

i wanna thank her..
for providing such a wonderful house for me. i believe both of us know, previous house is like a big hell. im so glad, i stay in Commonwealth, so near to mrt, with 2 cute doggies to play with. my life changed totally after shifting to here.

i wanna wish her all the best. forever happy and blessed with her hubby, a successful career and as rich as she can!

in conclusion.
i wanna thank my sister!

today.

despite of e emo post below. its quite a happy day.

work today is rather stress-free. though there's a few disputes as promo has ended. what's more it's been a long time since i topped Inbound calls as YL is not working today!

lunched today with Mike, Willie and Gerald @ Cuppage! its pretty good to have lunch other than boring places like park mall, haw par centre itself and ps!

and and and.. i am going to watch One Piece very soon!

做人看似简单。其实并不容易。
爱一个人很容易。但是忘记一个人很难。

已经快三个月了。

我相信，如果时间可以倒流，我还是会喜欢他。就算结果也是一样。我觉得，我一定会更珍惜他。

现在的我。只是默默地等待，心里许着小小的愿望，希望能在他的身边。。
现在的我。只能做的。就是让自己忙一点，多和朋友相处，逛多一点街！

还是方大同的歌词说的＂至少我们中还有人能快乐 这样就已足够了＂

真的，已经足够了。
(:

ever since last sat.

i have been feeling huge sense of lost.

reason being. i felt sooo tired. ever since i started my Yr 2 journey w RP.

i know. it's my choice. to becoming a Full time student n part time staff @ StarHub. but. it is super tiring. i do not know. is it still worth it. will ppl understand my situation n stand in my shoe to think.

it is REALLY not easy to cope studies n work at e same time. BUT. i need e diploma. i need e salary as well.

n now e issue is. i dont even know how long i can stay at SH. i hv always tis feeling tat my bosses cant wait to get rid of us. since last yr when they transferred half of my batch to TM.

i do wish. i can either be a full time student now n enjoy my student life as much as i wan. Or. Quit sch n becoming a full time staff at SH.

but i cant do neither way. i seriously do not know. how much ppl will appreciate my commitment etc.

on e other hand. feel so sick of relationship as well. n i do now wish to lie to my new classmates. they r good ppl.

in conclusion. tis is just an emo post. N i will not breakdown no matter wat!

I wanna own this!!!

today on my way home from work, after separating with Samuel, saw my GESS senior at raffles place. He is currently working at StarHub as well. After chatting with him until i alighted, i only then realised.. i dint even know his name =/

im sort of looking forward to tomorrow's lesson!

time.. to really give up.

last night.

i had this dream..

i held his hand. i love him.

but the love did not returned to me.

conclusion: dreams can be so realistic......

yesterday.
back to sch! class @ E26L. seems like im joining year 3 SIT's class today. =(
team mates not too bad. faci not too bad, as he likes my case study!
breakfast with Joyce and her friend.

after sch, off to Haw Par to collect my charger from Thomas. and went chinatown to buy shampoo and toothbrush.. its really damn cheap!


at night. celebrated Yuuki's birthday! both Yuuki and Chibi were really damnnn cute when they wear the birthday hat!

This is the birthday that my sis bought!

With dog bone design somemore!


Was really laughing my stomach off when trying to take pictures of them!

the happy us :D


today.
class @ E66N. my class is really damn far can.
faci is damn cool. allows 5 mins grace. thanks to Nigel huh..
at least im in the same class as Nigel *again
i got him to join my group and im not that boring in class!
and he wore Hot Blood shirt.. reminded me of YL..


breakfast with Joyce n her friend again. and i met up with Xue jun, Nabilah and Haziriah for lunch!


after sch, Lijia dar was so so nice to accompany me to go town to search for birthday present!
wanted to head to Ben & Jerry's free cone day, but ended up.... =(


however, a woman suddenly approached me at the cathay and i had free eyebrow styling!


photos for today.
Central cafe @ TAKA reminded me of the first outing with him on 14 jan. =(

tired me. was rather pisssed today. NOW. disappointing as well. but i asked for it. =(

shall rest now as im working full shift tomorrow.